Bridge walker
I've realized that I still have something of a crush on Kushal. A few friends have even encouraged me to reconsider him.
Looking back, it didn't seem like such a good idea at the time and I lost some initial romantic feelings that I had for him. I feel a bit fluttery whenever I see him now though. He's still sweet, good looking, funny. On Thursday before the regents, I spent a day with him.. walking across bridges, talking, good stuff. I could still be myself around him. We bumped into a load of people that he knew and a few asked if I was his girlfriend....
The whole day though I felt like he was holding back, moreso than he did back in February. Assuming because I had just come out of a relationship.
A few days ago I had a conversation with Momo. I asked her.. at what point does a person decide to become more than friends?
momo (11:14:10 PM): if you're thinking about when to be more than friends with someone, that means you WANT to be more than friends with him
....
momo (11:51:59 PM): back to kushal
momo (11:52:34 PM): you should be with him
momo (11:52:35 PM): if he likes you too
Does he like me? I would sure like to hope so.
Am I going to take initiative? At this very moment, I don't think so.
I'm sort of losing sight of why dating relationships exist in high school. Why I should go out with anyone this point in time.
After talking with Istan, I've also realized that I'm too serious about this whole dating thing. .-.
I guess I shouldn't feel pressured to go out with anyone right now. And I'm not exactly opposed to my current status with Kushal. But I'm curious as to what it would be like to be with him. If it's worth taking a chance.. if it would ruin our friendship- very likely.
Looking back, it didn't seem like such a good idea at the time and I lost some initial romantic feelings that I had for him. I feel a bit fluttery whenever I see him now though. He's still sweet, good looking, funny. On Thursday before the regents, I spent a day with him.. walking across bridges, talking, good stuff. I could still be myself around him. We bumped into a load of people that he knew and a few asked if I was his girlfriend....
The whole day though I felt like he was holding back, moreso than he did back in February. Assuming because I had just come out of a relationship.
A few days ago I had a conversation with Momo. I asked her.. at what point does a person decide to become more than friends?
momo (11:14:10 PM): if you're thinking about when to be more than friends with someone, that means you WANT to be more than friends with him
....
momo (11:51:59 PM): back to kushal
momo (11:52:34 PM): you should be with him
momo (11:52:35 PM): if he likes you too
Does he like me? I would sure like to hope so.
Am I going to take initiative? At this very moment, I don't think so.
I'm sort of losing sight of why dating relationships exist in high school. Why I should go out with anyone this point in time.
After talking with Istan, I've also realized that I'm too serious about this whole dating thing. .-.
I guess I shouldn't feel pressured to go out with anyone right now. And I'm not exactly opposed to my current status with Kushal. But I'm curious as to what it would be like to be with him. If it's worth taking a chance.. if it would ruin our friendship- very likely.