I don't really like updating this thing anymore, but at the same time I'm afraid that if I don't log parts of my life I might forget about them later. Although, my updates are really general so I don't think it matters anyway ( Read more... )

i've stopped thinking about all the things that are wrong with me that make situations go bad or when life isn't perfect ( Read more... )

This has been one of the saddest things I've had to do.

So I'm usually an avid believer in the law of attraction and I boast about it to all my friends telling them to practice it, because it does in fact work when you practice it the right way. For those who are not familiar with the law of attraction, the article on wikipedia defines it perfectly -- "the Law of Attraction says people's thoughts (both ( Read more... )

Step 1: Put your iPod on random ( Read more... )

They always said that teenage years were hard, but nobody ever said much about life after graduation. Teenage years were peaches and cream compared to the hell most will experience after graduating. You spent your teenage and college years building yourself up, only to end up at the bottom again. And by bottom, I mean you get shit on everywhere you ( Read more... )

How sad is it that the only thing making me smile right now is looking through Facebook bumper stickers and laughing out loud at all the funny ones?

Pathetic, I say. But, hey. At least I'm smiling again.

I wish I didn't always have to map things out. I wish I could just stop thinking. That would be great.

I'm not sure if what I'm experiencing right now is myself or my alter ego.
When I tried to change myself to who I wanted, I felt more comfortable.
But I'm used to fucking things up, and I'm used to being a maniac, so the whole time I felt like myself ( Read more... )

The thing is...I know happiness is right around the corner, but when it gets here, I'm not going to feel like I deserve it. I'm going to feel guilty about being happy after being so depressed for so long ( Read more... )

my aparthy scares me.
my willingness to keep faith scares me.
the fact that i'm not scared scares me.

i almost wish my life was falling apart a bit more.
or that everything would just be fine and dandy again.
i don't want to look to the past for answers.

i just want to be. and be happy.
i hate my life.