of not being liked or not being cool enough or that I don't really matter to anyone but like two people. This will be a pitty party journal but really. Perhaps it's my fault, or not. Perhaps I just need to branch out and find different friends. But I'm tired of sitting at home and having to hear about how cool everyone else's life is. Maybe it's ( Read more... )

So Megan one day offhandedly mentioned wanting a cat. I had passed a flyer for giving away kittens and got all excited about the prospect so I rushed out to get a number, completely deciding in my head that I wanted one as well ( Read more... )

I went through the facebook and decided to add anyone and everyone I knew from the past that I ran across to my friends list. No matter who they were. If I thought they were a bitch, if they were cruel to me, if they were really weird, whatever. If i knew them I added them. It was interesting to take that trip down memory lane. To see what became ( Read more... )

Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish
were true, put comments in parenthesis, add one true thing about you,
and then tag five more people.
* I miss somebody right now.
* I don’t watch much TV these days.
* I love olives.
* I own lots of books.* I wear glasses or contact lenses (I should, can't see out of right eye ( Read more... )

I never really understand what being "smart," "being on top of the class," "having a high GPA" really means to me until I'm in Jeopardy of fucking that up. It's seriously a psychological mind fuck if I'm even close to getting something other than an A, not so bad if I get a B, but still bad. I have no idea why but I'm close to crying right now and ( Read more... )

I think I have a new favorite poet. I will have to research more of her writing (literally, it's for class), but I'm a strong believer in first impressions. From what I know now, we have a lot in common and will probably go out the same way (tehe he). But anyway, here's what turned me on to her ( Read more... )

Jeff, Jason, Perry, Andrew, a girl named Ann, and of course Bryon and Megan were over yesterday for cake and ice cream and DDR and pizza, though the last two were spontaneous. I felt really special yesterday, which i guess is rightfully so since it was the celebration of my birth. It's dragged on to today and I'm really feeling better than I have ( Read more... )

i so happy!

I almost fucking cried trying to get him to change his mind. I asked him why and he listed a bunch of stuff which basically sumed up to "I'm not getting my way." I was worried that I should tell someone about it, but I didn't want to completely ruin this kids life over a comment he probably didn't mean. Then I could be wrong and the kid's blown ( Read more... )

i seriously have lost it these past few days ( Read more... )