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[bertuccio]

Fix me to a chain around your neck and wear me like a nickel.
Even new wine served in old skins will cheapen the taste.
I shot the pilot, now I'm begging you to fly this for me.
I'm here for you to use, broken and bruised.
Do you understand?
It's only you, beautiful.
Or don't want anyone.
Brand New "No Seltbelt Song"

Guess what I did tonight?  Defiled

Comments

[artistchick]

I seem to get worse when I have too much contact with others as well. In fact, I wrote in my private journal at home the day before yesterday something very similar to what you have said--wondering whether giving up all interaction with people would be helpful in comparison to the state of things when I do interact with people. I thought that, in the least, although I'd probably still be unhappy, my unhappiness wouldn't have a negative effect on anyone else.

Expectations are a lot of it. I'm now reading an interesting book on cognitive therapy called Good Mood by Julian L. Simon. It focuses on reducing or eliminating the number of negative self comparisons one makes as a technique for conquering depression. Very insightful. It makes complete sense for a number of disorder, including schizophrenia, manic depression, etc., and shows the depressive how to take control of his/her emotions. The man who wrote the book was depressed for about thirteen years and conquered his depression with this technique in a matter of weeks.

Affecting other people

[macie_2004]

You have enough on your plate. Let other people deal with their reactions to you. It's their responsibility, not yours. That's why I asked you not to visit my place for a while. I reflect your moods when you're down, and that's a problem that I have to deal with. It's not your fault, and because it's within me, you couldn't fix it no matter how much you would like to. Focus your energy on your own journey, (Don't forget to pack toothpaste)and try to enjoy the trip. Even the bad stuff leads to rewards. The worse it is, the better the rewards will be.

Re: Affecting other people

[artistchick]

Your post almost made me cry! =')

Since other peope's reactions affect me negatively, I'm trying to change my own expectations of them as well as improving myself (although changing my expectations is definitely a part of that).

Thanks for the encouragement, Macie. =)

Re: Affecting other people

[bertuccio]

You asked me not to visit? When did this sanction end?

[anonymous]

yo. you know who the fuck i am.

JV should be stealing this shit and make a profit for himself.

[bertuccio]

haha!! You are awesome...
"pull the trigger and the nightmare stops"
who?