um. so i lied.

hand me downs?
and i remembered -
he's dead.
dead & gone and he won't enjoy christmas with me - ever - again.

i should have had a good day.

guess not.

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the "star tours" ride at disneyland. time and again i get on this ride, and NEVER - i repeat, NEVER land on endor. do you know what a let down this is? especially to a child? i grew up wanting to play with ewoks, and everytime i would wait in line for HOURS, i'd stare at all the signs, and the commercials telling me - "prepare yourself for your ( Read more... )

i want all the time in the world.
to be my own boss.
to have a cat sit on my lap and feel it purring.
i want - obsessions.
i want - want - want.
i desire - passion unbridled.
i crave revenge.
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there is something so suffocating about the confinements of one's home.

i'm carving pumpkins today. and cooking.
i arrived to an empty refrigerator, and a headache.

i miss traveling already.

in other news, halloween:
ideas, plans? invite!

- Q

i used to be nicer.
then again, i used to be depressed quite often.

there is a very large difference from the age of 18, to that of 22.

i was just reading through my past entires.

wow. times change. people change.
i hardly know those people anymore.
i don't even know who i used to be.

at least i am now comfortable in my own skin.

sometimes i love it.
other times i want to bludgeon people in the head and yell at the top of my lungs,
"how dare you create such a horrible outfit? don't you understand humanity is but sheep and will follow this disgusting trend!"

[fashion pet peeves.]


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