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Bitter?
I understand better why they say watch out after you give birth, that the hormones and emotions you feel, coupled with the fatigue makes for a nasty ride indeed :\
I wont say Im overly /depressed/ but I deffo have major ups and downs. Extremes of them at times : \ Not that strikes me as different then it was before I was pregnant, but this def ( Read more... ) -
Those lonely parts.
So; here we are.
We're parents now. As of the 11th, 231am, Zoe Mae Allen was born via c-section in Anaheim California.
I wish I could say I am wholly enjoying this flush of parental feelings and pleasures; and I am for the most part. This implies something troubles me; which it is. I admit I'm tired, im sore in ways and places NO ONE tells you hurts ( Read more... ) -
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I'm 40 weeks and a couple days along now >.>
Doctor is concerned with the diabetes; and wants me to get tested, and possibly induced.
To help pass the time, I created a blog for cooking.
http://waeaimk.blogspot.com/ ; maybe once a week to every two weeks i'll try something new and post about ( Read more... ) -
Wat
I am bored.
I am 39 weeks pregnant; i have very few signs that birth is imminent, I feel slightly overwhelmed, emotionally drained and quite bored and lonely. My husband, whom I love dearly, I fear I am not supporting enough, while at the same time I feel is humoring me at times : \ This whole 'about to have a kid' thing seems quite surreal still; ( Read more... ) -
Whatever.
One of the hardest things Ive had to try and find a way to cope with during this whole pregnancy thing is the stagnation of our time alone ( Read more... ) -
Sit sit
aLone
sit sit
home bound
beLLy fuLL
beLLy quiver..quiver..
sit sit no matter
my teeth
my jaws still grasp
weighing possibilities
the
weight of whats to come
tasting the difference in
outcomes
watch watching
for signs
fending off anxiety with
dreams
and ..ssssong
colored noise
so fLeeting anymore
I hope you catch them
my LittLe Hands. -
35 weeks. my gad.
Where did the time go X_X
Sitting here, about to go to a prenatal appointment; trying not to wonder about the potentially peculiar contents of one of my dish towels sitting on my roomates computer tower, feeling my heart pound cause of.. fuck only knows.
Baby is moven a bit. Our Zoe :)
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Its the circles inside. -
Really.
I really could go for some relaxation ( Read more... ) -
shakey.
Such a strange dream before I got up this morning.
I know it wont come to pass; but part of me has such a terror. guh.
need calm.
Mm..