I Know Him
I Know Him
pg, AS/S, ~500 words, romance, angst
Summary: I should have known that I could never have him.
Scorpius looks at me, and I fake a smile so he won't see just what he does to me. I pretend that everything is okay, that my heart isn't broken in two, that he isn't smiling and laughing and in love with someone who isn't me.
Laura Bones doesn't know how lucky she is. I'd give anything to be in her place right now, sitting across from Scorpius in the middle of Madam Puddifoot's and holding his hand. Instead, I'm standing outside of the window, watching them from the street.
I didn't know they were going on a date today. Scorpius never mentioned it. I shouldn't be surprised though. When he asked if I was going to Hogsmeade, my heart leapt into my throat, hoping that maybe, maybe, he was asking me on a date. I tried to be casual about it, blowing it off with a "probably" and a shrug. I think I was too casual about it. He smiled at me then and mentioned a cute girl he'd met.
I never knew a heart could be crushed in mere seconds.
I should have known then that he was taking her to Hogsmeade. I should have guessed that they would end up in the teashop. I should have known that I could never have him.
She smiles at him, and he bursts into laughter. I know that he's just told a joke-he always laughs at his own jokes-and I find myself resentful of the fact that she didn't laugh at it. I always laugh at his jokes. I always listen to his stories. I do anything and everything I can do to make him notice me.
He looks up and sees me again, and he shoots me an odd look. I shrug and walk off, far enough away that I don't look like I'm watching them but close enough that I can still catch a glimpse of them when they leave.
It's another twenty minutes before they exit the shop. He's grinning like mad. I've seen that smile many, many times, but he rarely shows it to anyone besides me. I'm jealous of her for getting that smile.
He walks by me, nods his head at me, and continues on. I doubt he could tell that I couldn't breathe and that my heart was beating double time. He's too interested in Laura.
She had better be good to him if she wants to keep him because I'm not giving up. Scorpius has been my best mate for six years and my crush for three. I know him better than anyone does. I know that when he comes back to the dorm tonight, he'll proclaim himself in love. I know that he'll think he's finally got it right. I know that he'll climb into bed and fall asleep with a smile on his face.
I know that I'll turn out the light, shut the curtains, and cry myself to sleep.
Until then though, I'll just keep faking my smile and hope that he won't see through it.
pg, AS/S, ~500 words, romance, angst
Summary: I should have known that I could never have him.
Scorpius looks at me, and I fake a smile so he won't see just what he does to me. I pretend that everything is okay, that my heart isn't broken in two, that he isn't smiling and laughing and in love with someone who isn't me.
Laura Bones doesn't know how lucky she is. I'd give anything to be in her place right now, sitting across from Scorpius in the middle of Madam Puddifoot's and holding his hand. Instead, I'm standing outside of the window, watching them from the street.
I didn't know they were going on a date today. Scorpius never mentioned it. I shouldn't be surprised though. When he asked if I was going to Hogsmeade, my heart leapt into my throat, hoping that maybe, maybe, he was asking me on a date. I tried to be casual about it, blowing it off with a "probably" and a shrug. I think I was too casual about it. He smiled at me then and mentioned a cute girl he'd met.
I never knew a heart could be crushed in mere seconds.
I should have known then that he was taking her to Hogsmeade. I should have guessed that they would end up in the teashop. I should have known that I could never have him.
She smiles at him, and he bursts into laughter. I know that he's just told a joke-he always laughs at his own jokes-and I find myself resentful of the fact that she didn't laugh at it. I always laugh at his jokes. I always listen to his stories. I do anything and everything I can do to make him notice me.
He looks up and sees me again, and he shoots me an odd look. I shrug and walk off, far enough away that I don't look like I'm watching them but close enough that I can still catch a glimpse of them when they leave.
It's another twenty minutes before they exit the shop. He's grinning like mad. I've seen that smile many, many times, but he rarely shows it to anyone besides me. I'm jealous of her for getting that smile.
He walks by me, nods his head at me, and continues on. I doubt he could tell that I couldn't breathe and that my heart was beating double time. He's too interested in Laura.
She had better be good to him if she wants to keep him because I'm not giving up. Scorpius has been my best mate for six years and my crush for three. I know him better than anyone does. I know that when he comes back to the dorm tonight, he'll proclaim himself in love. I know that he'll think he's finally got it right. I know that he'll climb into bed and fall asleep with a smile on his face.
I know that I'll turn out the light, shut the curtains, and cry myself to sleep.
Until then though, I'll just keep faking my smile and hope that he won't see through it.