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[bethlehem2]

I'm feeling so low right now. I'm tired, I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm out on a ledge, I'm on my own, I'm lost, I'm frightened, I'm full of self loathing, I'm friendless, I'm under medicated, I'm the parent to my parent, I'm angry, I'm crying, I'm crying out

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[tabaqui]

Hey -

We don't talk much, i know - in fact, my horrible, horrible memory has no clue about why we're friended. But then, that's most of my flist, so please don't feel bad.

*However* - someone's listening, so please don't stop talking. Your last post was about a great night out with friends - call them. Go for a walk, buy some flowers, change any little thing you can. I know it's hard, i know it's easier to hide but please don't. People are listening.

*offers hugs and a willing ear*

[bethlehem2]

I friended you because I love the way you write.

Thanks for offering a willing ear. I'm feeling better but still wibbly. I'll be posting more for sure. Thanks.

[tabaqui]

*hugs*
Better is good. I should really get going and *write* something, shouldn't i?
:)

[amelia_eve]

Another listener, here.

And my advice, for what it's worth: Get your ass out to the ocean. Smell the water. Breathe the air. Touch the Earth; she'll touch you back.

[bethlehem2]

Thanks amelia. I'm gonna get on my bike after work and take a ride around the block a time or two. Still a bit wibbly but it's good for me to know there are people out there who willing to listen.

Thanks!!

[amelia_eve]

Still listening, still caring.

And you inspired me to go down to the waterfront tonight. That air really is revivifying.

[evilmaniclaugh]

I know it's hard, baby, and I understand a lot of the things you're feeling. It's great that you're getting to the docs. I'm proud of you.

Massive love.

XXX

[bethlehem2]

Thanks, I know you've had your own tough times lately. Doctors appointment on Friday and I'm getting a new script for my Lexapro this week so I should be makining some headway by the weekend.

I'm going to take a bike ride when I get home from work today. That should help clear out the cobwebs some.

Massive love right back at ya!!!

[sirena73]

Will you be home tonight? Can I give you a call? I thought about you all weekend long, maybe this is why.

You're not alone, not at all. You know I've been there. Let me be there for you. *fierce hugs*

[bethlehem2]

I will be home. I so didn't mean to have a massive melt down on LJ but there you go.

I'm gonna take a bike ride right after work but I'll be around after that for sure.

Talk to you tonight!!

xoxoxox

[sirena73]

You got it. Talk to you soon-ish.

[bethlehem2]

Thanks, it's nice to know I'm not as alone as I thought I was. xo