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bethofalltrades

Meals of Pachyderm

Jul 18, 2012 16:31

I've never done a proper blog about being an "atypical" ADD kid or finally getting the diagnosis at age 27 that literally changed my life. I don't think this will be that blog, but who's to say what a "proper" blog is anyway. I want to talk to you about creativity and productivity but first I have to talk to you about ADD, because for me all ( Read more... )

writing, metaphors, adhd, my writing, add, brain

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orcaarrow July 19 2012, 02:02:09 UTC

You are incredibly brave to post this. I'm glad you are adapting and moving on with your life.

singinglark July 19 2012, 02:06:05 UTC

I love this post, and I love your zombie leprechaun.

I don't know if I have ADD, I've never been diagnosed, but a lot of this rings a chord in me. There are days when putting a load of laundry through the washer and the dryer is my one big accomplishment. Sometimes I think I have induced ADD through a life that pulls me in so many different directions (responsibilities) at once.

I like the idea of "make one thing every day." Sometimes it's a poem, sometimes it's lunch. I wonder what each of us will make tomorrow?

cranky__crocus July 19 2012, 02:20:31 UTC

This is beautiful. It was affecting me even before I got to "job application", but after reading that it just jumped straight into my heart.

I keep a To Do List at all times--clean and rainbow and sparkly--and some days it works, but some days I look at it and just want to cry all over it.

I don't have ADD or ADHD. I was the way you describe as a child, though I have always been able to sit down and become completely absorbed by a task when I stopped being deadly frightened of it. But when I get anxiety!brain...it seems to make all my thoughts zingers, flying about my brain nearly too quickly to catch--and then, in the event of being caught, too frightening to hold ( ... )

anonymous July 19 2012, 03:36:21 UTC

Wow, I could have written this. Except maybe not, because even though I read the whole thing, I only got about half the words. Every day I have my task list broken down to the smallest possible partical, and it's a fight to get each little step. Most days I only get to check off a few, but on the days I forget to check my task list, I don't manage any. It only occurred to me a few years ago that I might have a legitimate issue when I was "listening" to my husband answer a question, and even though I wanted to hear the answer I caught myself missing it. I asked him to repeat himself, and promptly tuned out again. I've done the same thing in the middle of job interviews, in fact I'm not sure I've ever gone through an interview without panicking when I realize I've stopped listening to the interviewer.

I have written a novel though. That happened. It's unpublished, it still needs some edits, but it's written. Whenever I doubt my ability to accomplish anything, I remind myself of that.

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brinshannara July 19 2012, 05:21:07 UTC

You are awesome and I love you dearly.

I, too, struggle with the idea of Doing All That Must Be Done and I even struggle with doing just one thing -- so props to you on that. And yes, hot dogs definitely count.

Love that you're writing. You make me want to close my browser and go back to my NaNo novel from, uh, 200...3? Whichever one it is that is over 70k words now and nowehre near finished. It's a mess, but it's MY mess and I love it to bits.

You're doing amazing things. Keep it up. :)