I have been so depressed lately. I don't know what to do. I'm starting to think this whole livejournal thing is pointless, because the whole reason I started this thing was to rekindle relationships, but instead I lost them all.
You didnt lose them, and your not the only one feeling like that. But maybe actual contact would help with relationships (not trying to be a dick either). But cheer up =) As i try myself. Call me.
The thing is, I really won't call. Maybe you can call me, or maybe I'll call you, but if I don't you'll just keep waiting, and so will I and then we'll both still be depressed
I BARELY EVEN WRITE IN HERE ANYMORE, BUT I WILL TRY MORE. HEY ITS HARD MAKING PLANS WITH ANYONE ANYMORE. WE HAVE TO GET TOGETHER SOON! PEOPLE GO SEPERATE WAYS , BUT WE WILL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS YA KNOW!
But the thing is, we're both different now. You've changed, but it's different for you because you've changed with all your friends. But I've changed without my friends, so now I don't have them anymore. The thing is, really, I don't call anyone anymore even when I say I do, I keep waiting for someone to call me, but the phone dosen't ring. It's just that I've changed and I don't like it. I'm going to be getting married within the next few years, and the people I REALLY would want to stand up in my wedding, like you, are not going to want to be in it because we haven't experienced so much together anymore.
i think the issue is, that everyone is so busy within their own little lives, and it is hard to get together and make plans. you have other friends, and so do i. we are so used to hanging out with the same people and not each other, that we dont think to call. i mean i honestly dont think to call you when im going out, because we never hang out any other time ya know? your focused on school, which is awesome, and im focused on trying to make and SAVE money to go to school, and get another fricken car! life is crazy, and a lot of the time it SUCKS! believe me i know! and so do you! but that doesnt change us being friends! i remember when we were like ALWAYS hanging out, and saving baby birds! lol! and i would gladly stand up in your wedding any day! dont worry we WILL get together soon ok! i will call you this weekend! love ya, steph
I say fuck friends. Seriously, what are they good for? Honestly, everyone only has one friend that is actually worth having around if they're very lucky. One friend who will never intentionally betray or hurt you. You have Matt. Matt is that one friend and so much more. Like you always say, your other friends probably aren't gonna be there to comfort you at 4 in the morning when you can't sleep, they're not gonna spend almost every minute with you for the rest of your life, put a ring on your finger and most importantly Matt and you have been to hell and back together quite a few times. No one else can share that because no one else can relate. You're the lucky one. Your friends really do understand and deep down envy you. Some friends will just be there if you need them no matter how long of a time it's been since you'e talked.
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love ya,
steph
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