I apparently cannot sleep...again. I've been trying to go to sleep for the last two hours...finally I decided that with only two hours left before I have to get up again, it isn't even worth it. So. Now I have to think of something to do 'cause I know no one else is up this early. Maybe I'll go get some coffee and go to Walmart or something. I ( Read more... )

Waiting for the sun to come up so I can go running. What the hell time does the sun come up?

I tried to go to sleep early. It wasn't happening. Damn you. Now it's 3:45 and I have to wake up at 6:00. Stupid brain. I figured out how I think I want to do the arrows in my room at the apartment. I think I want to do orange arrows. I want one pointing straight down the wall from the ceiling to the top of my bed. Then...I want one diagonally from ( Read more... )

It looks like everything is going to work out. My dad is taking off work on thursday so I can go take the driving test and get my license (yay!)...Eddie Richards finally called my mom back. If we have enough time on thursday, we're going to go get a car. If not, I have to wait until monday. Either way I get a car very, very soon. Exciting stuff. I ( Read more... )

Sometimes I get very sad without any reason or warning at all. Sometimes, even when everything is perfect, I want to cry. And not in a good way. Sometimes I think that I can trick myself into loving someone. Sometimes I know I can. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I don't like myself very much. Sometimes just the sight of ( Read more... )

I really hope somebody wants to do something tonight. I'm feeling really good about myself and I don't want to waste it sitting around the house doing nothing.

I watched White Oleander again today. I had almost forgotten how much I love that movie. I'm going home tomorrow morning. I would rather be home alone, I guess. I need to get out of the house...just not with my parentals. I'm not actively looking for a relationship or anything but...I have to admit that it gets kind of lonely from time to time.

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You know when you're having a dream that's so wonderful that you just can't make yourself wake up? I slept in two extra hours today. And then when I woke up, it actually physically hurt me. And I cried. I sometimes miss things that haven't been there for a very long time ( Read more... )

I was going to write something really profound. But I forgot what it was. My first boyfriend, John Gilbert, got married...and then divorced...and has a kid on the way. My old best friend, Kristi, has a 6 month old baby. Ashley has two kids. Julie has one. Melody has one. Caitlin is pregnant but isn't sure who the father is. No one knows what ( Read more... )