I'm giving up. I have this fun little platonic friendship with Jeff so I'm gonna stick to that and not worry about anything else. It just isn't worth it.

I don't like nyquil. I slept all day and had weird half dreams. And now I'm groggy and very lonely.

When I was little, I thought slugs were ugly. And one time I put salt on one. And I'm sorry.

I'm sitting in a patch of clover again. Only this time I'm sitting in a chair because it makes me feel more grown up. I glance down at my hand resting in my lap. I'm wearing a blood red shirt that I got when I gave blood at school last year. I have a burgundy blanket wrapped around me. Savannah made it for me during Christmas Pageant for being her ( Read more... )

Cleaning the house today. Came across the little book I bought in London to hold all the little things I wanted to put in my scrapbook. It has all the inside jokes from the trip. It made me smile ( Read more... )

My brother didn't invite me to his show. He invited my asshole dad and my mom and stepdad...but he didn't invite me. I have been to every single show he has done anything for. If he built the fucking set, I saw the show. And he didn't even invite me. And also, Cliff is stoned.

I...hate mornings.

I went to the zoo today with Chynna, Jase, and Morgan. It was the greatest thing. Sarah was too sick to go so we brought her back a present.

I want the sun to come up. And maybe I'll sleep in another two weeks when John is home and I have someone to sleep next to. Having Daniel on the couch in my room just isn't enough and shadows are creepy. Chris and Daniel showed up tonight and we all went to the movies. We saw White Noise. If you're easily creeped, don't go to see it. Everyone else ( Read more... )

My dad; the built in support system. Or not. I asked him if he liked the song. He said it was okay. I asked him if my voice at least sounded good. He said it sounded okay. And then he started yelling at me about how can I be so happy when life is so shitty and we're both so in debt. Thanks Dad.