Purple visited tonight. A familiar face, but not an old friend. Had I forgotten what this feels like? Purple weights on my cheeks and eyes. Wrinkled brow and chin, sore face, and haze. I'm not nearly as bad as I used to get, but that doesn't make it feel any better. Haze is here all the same. I wanted to cry, I cried, and my eyes sat in a ( Read more... )

( Firsts )

I killed some ghosts today. It had been long enough. It was time to claim back my territory. As the mangled, twisted tree greeted me, my heart sank into my stomach and urged me to vomit. I felt so woosey. I stood there for about five minutes. Should I go in? I have to. It was a beautiful day today. Everything didn't look as scary as it ( Read more... )

He speaks in silence
in stars and mountain majestic
red letters, blu fire
He speaks in tears
in gasps and sighs of song
heart beating, rushing water
He speaks in wind
the wind speaks loudly, thundering in your soul
rolling rumble, like great rocks walking
listen to the stars sing silent
He speaks in silence

Whoot! Just got back from Gregory's house. I love his parents and sister and grandma to death! It's so nice to be accepted by my boyfriend's family. You have no idea. It was a great relief for Gregory and I both. I've gushed about it all day, so I'm kind of spent on the subject really, but in truth I feel very peaceful and warm inside. I ( Read more... )

Taste the dillusions, they're coming back ( Read more... )

Okay, sorry for the mopey entry yesterday. I'm glad to anounce that today I did not have a major phisical ailment. Yes, the neck is loosening up quite nicely. Although I did have a little trouble controling my bodily functions while dancing, but I can't ask for everything, now can I? Watched that beautiful Rowan Atkinson at his best for a bit; ( Read more... )

Today was lovely and I'm so boring it hurts. I was so excited to sing my Russian song today, it was maddening. And then... right as I'm walking up to the stage for my turn in studio the pianist has to go. "Is Robert leaving?" I asked, a bit distressed. "Yeah, why? Do you have a hard song?" Dale asks. "Um, yeah... it made Jan cry because she ( Read more... )

Wowza, I'm tired but I miss my babies so I need to write something. Today was interesting. Started out by going to my old high school to pick up my sister from choir. I knocked on the door and Davin (a kid that should have graduated with me, but screwed off too much) opened the door and gave me a huge hug while screaming, "Bethy's here!" Then I ( Read more... )

I should be sleeping, but no matter. I said goodnight to Gregory a little while ago. Technically I've been a bad kid tonight. I didn't do my reading, and I kissed Greg even though I've got a sore throat. In the words of that beautiful boy, “whoops.” Abby’s not here, but I’m doing okay. I’m not sad or lonely, I miss her, but I’m okay. That’s ( Read more... )