the piece of paper in the typewriter says:'what the hell was i looking for anyway?'

[better_at_3am]

i am spending money i shouldn't spend on chinese takeout at 9:30 on a monday night, the remains of a large mug of coffee cooling on my desk back in my fourth floor apartment; a five room apartment with four windows. one of them is in the shower. i am here taking a break from one of my life goals, one that is in a constant up and down of passion and

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[anonymous]

hi...don't mean to be a creep...but i understand your meaning of "full"...simple moments in life are the true moments of happiness, where you are satisfied and feel blessed with what you have or might not have.

p.s.
if you like tofu...you should give pineapple tofu a try

[better_at_3am]

hello! i'm always interested to meet new lurkers, but nothing here is friends only, so you've really got no motivation to reveal yourself beyond my curiosity, which may or may not mean anything to you.

happy interneting,
-jon

[anonymous]

identity comes with expectations,
as you described in your passage, feeling 'euphoric' in a sense....do you always feel this way? do you think that we exist if moments like that doesn't occur...i mean it does occur, but we are trapped from feeling them?...i have often question my being here...feeling helpless when i feel lost...should i be somewhere else...with another surrounding...i guess i'm at a point in my life..where i should be questioning where i should go next...if only i can take off and travel around the world..and no expectations would be on my shoulders.

-anonymous

[better_at_3am]

well i say, go for it. travel the world, see the universe. what else have you got to do with your life but make it what you want it to be?

if you've been reading my journal for a bit, or if you've browsed around some, or maybe if you know me in real life, you'll know i'm not euphoric all the time, although as a generalization i feel the way i felt writing this more often than not.

identity may come with expectations, but anonymity comes with assumptions.

which ever you prefer.

[anonymous]

travel the world, see the universe...if only things are that easy...not everyone has the luxury of just taking off whenever they like...but it is my main goal to do so...to travel and learn yourself and others, now that would be my 'euphoria'....alright, no more whining...as i believe in fate..whatever happens will happen..i'll make the best of what is given.

identity may come with expectations, but anonimity comes with assumptions, don't assume for it might lead to disappointment.

on that note_ i will rid you of this chase...thanks for the delightful passage.

[better_at_3am]

thank you for thinking that this was delightful. i'm not trying to convince you to tell me who you are, that's up to you, i'm just curious by nature. feel free to stick around.