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[bettiepepper]

I'm sorry I've been away. I've been in a horrible place mentally. I'm seriously considering checking myself into a psych ward. Have Any of you guys had to? You can message me if you don't wanna out yourself, I understand. I'm really scared and feel very out of control of my life

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[robvansam]

One of my fellow lj friends (who's also a friend in real life) has. Quite a few years ago and it helped her tremendously.

[bettiepepper]

Thank you for your input. *hugs*

[robvansam]

I can provide you with her name if you like (I'll ask her if it's alright though)

[umbreons_shadow]

Oh no. So basically you feel can't cope with life atm?
It's probably much worse then I can imagine. I would say it probably has a lot do with the anxiety, it does make me feel like I can't cope with life sometimes. The depression I had has gone. Mine is no where near anything other then mild.

No, I have never been to one. I would definitely talk to your therapist first. :/

[bettiepepper]

Yes. I feel pretty detached and like I'm not in control of my life. I feel like it's a movie happening before my eyes and I'm not partaking in it. It's really weird.

Thank you for your input love!

[ichaelis]

Checking in doesn't mean anything bad, necessarily. I haven't gone myself, but my cousin is in bad shape mentally and physically (we don't know what's wrong with her but she's in a wheelchair because she can hardly move) and the doctor recommended she go. I know it can be scary - my sister's ex was once admitted because he had clinical depression - but if you're really in that bad a shape then it could help.

Whatever you decide, I hope you're okay soon. I'm genuinely happy for the first time in almost two years and I hate to think that you're not feeling well.

[bettiepepper]

You're right. Sometimes I feel like I can't shake the stigma of having myself committed even though I know that it will be the right thing to do. My therapist has recommended that I make an appointment with a psychiatrist and have a psych evaluation to see what my next course of action will be.

I'm so glad to hear that you are genuinely happy. You deserve it so much love. You truly do.

And thank you again for reaching out to me on FB. You're a sweetheart and I'm so glad to know you.

[ichaelis]

It's a shame there's such a stigma with it because yeah, a lot of lunies go and it can be scary, but it's better than not doing anything and feeling bad.
Whatever happens, I just hope it's over quickly. You don't deserve to feel this way.

Oh, btw, I thought you'd like to know, Mike took me to a Korean/Japanese restaurant and apparently he loves KPop bands. Just totally made me think of you <3

[carorules]

So sorry things are tough, what does your therapist suggests you do?

[bettiepepper]

Thank you.
She has recommended that I make an appointment w/ a psychiatrist and see what they think. It will probably be a while before I can get in to see someone but at least I'll be able to get some help eventually.

[carorules]

Sucks how when you need help it always takes forever to see someone about it.. :(

[bettiepepper]

*hugs*
Thank you so much. I've been feeling better since I posted this entry but I don't feel completely like myself yet. I'm hoping that things will get better. ♥