soggy and cold on the inside

[bevbo]

Week 7...got to stay home Monday and Tuesday with a sick little boy. Grandma Elliott came down to help us out and she got to stay home with Benjamin today. My class was horrible for my subs. My class was horrible for me. I hate my job. I feel like a big failure there. I feel like a big ol' whiny complainer....maybe because I am. The vice principal

Comments

[mervnet]

Man, that sucks. If you hate your job, maybe it's not the right job for you... Maybe there's another job that IS the right job. Maybe you don't even need to go back to school to get it, or maybe you do. But for goodness sake's, don't torture yourself! That's not worth it... I hear what you're saying-- I work like crazy so our family can live a semi-lower-middle-class lifestyle instead of a straight-up poor-ass lifestyle. Luckily I don't hate my jobs, I just have to do them too much...

Maybe an Ed. Psyc degree or something where you could do testing with these kids or something where you work with them more one-on-one in short periods of time, instead of all day with a bunch of 'em?

[bevbo]

I am quite torn with what to do. THere are aspects of my job that I love. There are others that I hate. Then, there are parts that I hate right now but think that I will like again when I don't have little kids at home. My sister says she thinks I would like working with adults with disabilities doing job training/skills. I have gone back and forth about that one even since I went to school at Towar (I always thought I would enjoy teaching there, which is different than adults with disabilities but similar idea). I agree about working one on one for shorter periods instead of being with them all, all day. That is a huge part of my frustration. I often wonder why I am not a speech or occupational therapist, but then I remember the schooling you have to go through for that stuff and I just don't think I could do it. Right now I just want to work an entry level job or something where the expectations and the effect on other peoples lives is lower. THe trouble with that is that I would have to work more hours and probably year round. I

[steffydoo]

You have a nice basement for a daycare ; )

[bevbo]

True, but I don't think I could handle it. I said I would partner on that, but not run the show. Sometimes I think about taking on a kid or two if I knew a teacher that needed childcare. That way I would have the school schedule. But, when I work it out in detail it doesn't pan out for me. Besides, where would you guys sleep when you came to stay?

[caywood]

You sound totally stressed out. It seems like something should happen, don't you agree? If you hate your job, then why stay? You can make money at another job. It doesn't have to be the "perfect" choice for a job, just something else. Don't stay at a job you hate just because you can't figure out what else you wanna do. (coming from me, maybe that sounds kinda funny). But the more you stall, the longer you will be unhappy. Maybe you need a demotion. Not necessarily in your paycheck, but in your responsibilities. You have too many responsibilities and you want them all to be done right. But they can't all be done right and that stressed you out and makes you feel like a failure. So lighten your load. Be a lunch lady again. Ain't nothing wrong with that.

[bevbo]

Well, I am in a contract so I can't leave in the middle of the year. Not that I would