30th Hug
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New Years came and went but instead of resolutions, I find myself looking back over the past year. Granted, I've spent almost six of the past twelve months here but a lot happened in a very short time prior to arriving here. It could have been disasterous but somehow I managed to get my crap together and I'm proud of my accomplishments.
I fell in love and had that love returned by someone who refused to allow me to refuse her feelings.
I spoke with my father, my biological father, and stood up against his complaints, accusations and abuse. Even throwing a heavily used ashtray at my head and telling me I killed my mother...I remembered a past I'd blocked out for years. I'm sorry I forgot. I'm so sorry and I miss you...
I've given myself a future. For the first time I was actually able to think about what I really wanted. The gift of my freedom was something I had prepared myself to fight for, but this way is much easier. Sitting down with Shishou, his happiness was something I'd rarely seen before. His willingness to help find what I needed was a great help. The path is there, but the future is still uncertain on whether this journey is something I'll be forced to do alone or not.
Oh yeah, I also blocked Yuki.
So...this next year I just want to stay on this same path and hope what is to come when I return is...something I can be proud of.
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Another New Years gone...I swear I spend New Years Day sleeping every year because we always stay up to watch the sun rise.
Tohru, I will be over in about ten minutes to help clean up that mess. I know we got most of it cleaned up before we went outside but I'm not going to let you do all the work yourself. Though I should be telling you I told you so...having that many people in such a small place were bound to make a mess. Still, it was fun spending it with you.
Anyway...I guess I don't have many resolutions for this year
1. Beat Yuki because really if I want to improve I have to fight the person that pushes me the hardest
2. Continue the plans Shishou and I discussed
3. Visit my mothers grave.
New Years came and went but instead of resolutions, I find myself looking back over the past year. Granted, I've spent almost six of the past twelve months here but a lot happened in a very short time prior to arriving here. It could have been disasterous but somehow I managed to get my crap together and I'm proud of my accomplishments.
I fell in love and had that love returned by someone who refused to allow me to refuse her feelings.
I spoke with my father, my biological father, and stood up against his complaints, accusations and abuse. Even throwing a heavily used ashtray at my head and telling me I killed my mother...I remembered a past I'd blocked out for years. I'm sorry I forgot. I'm so sorry and I miss you...
I've given myself a future. For the first time I was actually able to think about what I really wanted. The gift of my freedom was something I had prepared myself to fight for, but this way is much easier. Sitting down with Shishou, his happiness was something I'd rarely seen before. His willingness to help find what I needed was a great help. The path is there, but the future is still uncertain on whether this journey is something I'll be forced to do alone or not.
Oh yeah, I also blocked Yuki.
So...this next year I just want to stay on this same path and hope what is to come when I return is...something I can be proud of.
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Another New Years gone...I swear I spend New Years Day sleeping every year because we always stay up to watch the sun rise.
Tohru, I will be over in about ten minutes to help clean up that mess. I know we got most of it cleaned up before we went outside but I'm not going to let you do all the work yourself. Though I should be telling you I told you so...having that many people in such a small place were bound to make a mess. Still, it was fun spending it with you.
Anyway...I guess I don't have many resolutions for this year
1. Beat Yuki because really if I want to improve I have to fight the person that pushes me the hardest
2. Continue the plans Shishou and I discussed
3. Visit my mothers grave.