This day wasn't as bad as i thought it would be (i woke up late and almost skipped school but then i decided to go anyway), i actually had fun. or maybe i laughed 'cause i don't know what else i could do anymore.. 8) i can't cry when there's people around, can i. well ok, fuck that shit. anyway,..

cats are cool<3

my cat is cool<3 ( Read more... )

shhit. fucking unfair. the first time i fell asleep last night i had that fucking paralysis again and i stayed up 'till 4 am and i woke up at 7 am. nice. i haven't read enough and i'm totally fucked up.

FUCK

i'm having troubles to breathe - - - fucking school i - i just - i just can't be here

Umh. I'm so fucking tired. I slept well but too little; Mikko left half past 9 this morning and we woke up like half past 7 and went to sleep something like 2 am or later. Yeah. Then i came back "homehome" and gave mum a flower and after that i've mostly read psychology; though i'm still at page 35. Fuck. I'm so not gonna learn this shit before ( Read more... )

Mm. Didn't see nightmares last night. I enjoyed my sleep too much though, skipped my psychology lesson. This all goes in circles. First i'm not able to leave my bed ('cause of i just can't or i'm too tired 'cause of all the nightmares i've been seeing), then i skip lessons from school, then i'm so screwed 'cause i can't explain them and aaarghhh. ( Read more... )

I just realized i'm suffering from sleep paralysis. No wonder i was terrified last night and many other nights before that. Jesus ( Read more... )

Horrible, horrible night i've left behind. I saw dreams where i was sleeping and kept having these terrible nightmares (which i could see too, of course) and i tried to scream but i couldn't. I kept waking up the whole night. At some point i didn't even want to go back to sleep and i wanted to cry. I kept yelling 'mum' in my dreams and she came ( Read more... )

I'm stupid. I didn't go to school today; FUCKING GOOD IDEA OH YEAH. I'm scared of myself really.. i wish i could just make this laziness go away ( Read more... )

Terrible. Headache ( Read more... )

Aaa. Last night was terrible. Had the worst hangover ever and thought my heart will jump right out of my chest - or that i'm going to die 'cos i can't breath or something else. Uhh. Fucking scary. I saw nightmares too, and woke up every fucking 5 minutes. 5 am i thought i'll get up but i tried to just lie awake, and i guess i fell asleep but then i ( Read more... )

Ouch. Too much coffee too much too much too much. I'm so bored i started cleaning..........

Ohh dear. I'm going nuts here, walking circles and so on. Can't go anywhere (except home of course but i don't wanna go there) 'cause i'm broke. Fuck.. this is sad.