I have realized this is a bad thing. I have nothing to do for an hour now, no panicy feelings to get something done, no worries. How boring. So, what are my plans this weekend...I am going to redesign the game of Clue. It's too boring with the other characters, rooms, and weapons. So far I have: Santa, with the pickaxe, in the reindeer shed/ ( Read more... )

i dk i dont trust him, seems to me he is getting desppead sorry i cant spell ( Read more... )

Fuck this. You know what happened to me last night? Nick wrote to me and said that Drew just wanted me for sex, didn't think I was attractive, and was getting desparate. Yea, super. Thanks you bastard. You don't even fucking know me.

My aunt and uncle picked my cousin and I up today to go the my uncle's funeral. My aunt said that I look good and have lost a lot of weight. I hate talking about weight. I mean, what happens if I gain a shitload all of a sudden? I would think, "Hmm, an I at the 'fat' stage? Do I look at the same point I did before?" It makes me sick to my ( Read more... )

Okay, so I did what was necessary. I asked Drew what his current feelings toward Katie were and he said that "I will always have feelings for Katie, but I know nothing will ever happen, so I have moved on." Whew. I think I can handle this. Amanda is gettin' some self-esteem here.

So, Drew and Katie are friends. That is very cool. It's just too bad that if Katie ever shows any interest in him in that "more than a friend" way, I am fucked. Not in the literal sense. I can assure all that is not going to happen anytime in the near future. Shit. I am going to be dropped like that. I am so fucked ( Read more... )

So, Drew likes me. Enough said.

It is my first night at a new school and I have just found out that my uncle has died. I don't know what to make of it. I wish I could simply cry and get it over with instead of staring at the screen and writing dumb shit on a web page. It's ridiculous.

Can you believe that I actually decided to utilize the subject heading? Cha Cha Cha Changes... So, I am going to a new school. I think I am happy. Pretty sure I am. Yet, my lovely friends find it fun to try and "hook" me up. Getting laid is what I don't think I need right now, though. I realize that I am a big talker and am considered to be ( Read more... )

Boys are dumb. After 18 years of life on earth, I have made this important discovery. Why do I think this? Well, I have had to run into the boy who previously shot me down for my first kiss because he's my friend. I don't think I can take it, though. I haven't been very nice to him and now I am going to his New Year's Eve party. Okay, so my ( Read more... )