Recent weeks have really sucked and i can't even pinpoint what it is thats the main thing bothering me. i don't feel like i've accomplished anything at all...ever. I've had things where people have said wow thats pretty big or i wouldn't have been able to do that and its meant nothing to me. I can't really recall anything that i've ever been really ( Read more... )

ok i don't want to sound too judgemental here or anything, but if someone doesn't speak to you for two years and even when you did know them they were just acasual acquaintance through an ex girlfriend suddenly starts im'ing you and throwing out offers of sexual favors and telling you that you have to go behind your friends backs even if you are to ( Read more... )

I haven't written in here lately much because i really don't know what to write about...basically, co ops suck, my job is ok, i ride constantly now, my classes are all easy because my teachers are all lazy bums who hardly have class....seriously my business class has only finished two full weeks of class and we meet twice a week, we've had two ( Read more... )

I could be becoming addicted to this. I've been goin on 27 mile bike rides everyother day and i think its going to be getting more frequent, not that its a bad thing but i don't really know why all of a sudden i've gottten so much into all of it. I think it may do with the fact taht if i don't get out and do something i start thinking too much and ( Read more... )

Things seem to be looking up again and she seems to be getting more comfortable with the idea of everything again. I hope so because i would really like this to work out. She just has this overall sweetness to her that makes you not want to leave her. It confuses me how some people could have been dumb enough to pass her up when they had the chance ( Read more... )

I wish i had the idea to kick my own ass more often...I've done nothing for the past 3 years almost.... I think the reason i haven't been happy with much in that period is because i haven't challenged myself...i haven't really tried at anything. I've done shit with music, i haven't really tried worth a damn in school, i have this business with Jeff ( Read more... )

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Looking back on these journal entries it almost seems as if its two different people between whats on the screen and where i'm at now. Something like being too overdependent on another person's presence or affections to feel good about things...It was always like i needed someone there in order for things to be balanced. It's definately nice to ( Read more... )

For the earlier part it was the most bleedingly boring day I've had here so far but the guys on the second and first floors were having a joined party and jim and nick from last year came up and we hung out at the party for a good while and shot the shit. The interesting part was when we were out on our front porch with everybody...i see this kid ( Read more... )

I kinda knew this would happen but i guess i wasn;t as cool with the idea as i thought i was. Oh well shit happens. As soonj as the commitment and being afraid of things came up i knew that nothing would ever happen with us but i guess there's always some part of you stuck on denial and clinging onto the smallest of percentages that just makes you ( Read more... )