sometimes I wonder if I'm as blind as those I hear stories about. Like, do I overreact in the same fucked up ways and self sabotage myself? Thus my heart goes out for a friend today who deserves not what they got...

new week, so sweet. good news from friends on far away ports put a spot of grinning warmth in my soul. and now this evening I too shall take part in a new start...

well, sometimes things really don't go your way so in return you get freedom and clarity. I don't understand it, I just don't fight it anymore.

it's when the tacks turn brass that you gotta figure out what you're made of. tryin like a motherfucker to not fuck it up this time...

much work tomorrow, much satisifying time spent indeed. spending afternoon time swimming and recording and evening time drinking and editing. yep, even find joy in waking up early nowadays. I spose that decision to finally grow up and become a man has continuted to prove itself beneficial. one happy duder...