me: what do you think of jennifer hudson?

brother: is she the one that used to be fat?

I have no wit, no words, no tears;

My heart within me like a stone

Is numb'd too much for hopes or fears;

Look right, look left, I dwell alone;

I lift mine eyes, but dimm'd with grief

No everlasting hills I see;

My life is in the falling leaf:

O Jesus, quicken me

I don’t really know what happened, when exactly it started ( Read more... )

wrong in charleston

back a few septembers
i don't remember when
exactly i was in love
with my own expectation
as wrong as the heavy air breathing
anxiety to smother hibiscus 
so something else could bloom

it's cold and rainy and pretty yucky outside, which ironically enough is not at all how i feel today. i'm older, sure. i have a few more little fine lines that i would really rather not have but for the most part,  i'm happy and healthy and have somehow managed to surround myself with wonderful people who make my life worth living, year after year ( Read more... )

i seem to be a walking ball of disaster these days, with the (almost) cutting off of the thumb (twice) and the dropping cereal bowls on my big toe (which is really starting to get gross on me now by the way). in addition to my physical injuries, i've been swimming around in a giant fucking cauldron of stress, boiling and bubbling over into pretty ( Read more... )

true to form, i cut my thumb while chopping scallions the other night while angry. i really should not be allowed to wield cutlery under the influence of anger because of the tendency for personal injury, but you can't tell me anything.

b: "do you think it's gangrene?"

m: "does it smell like almonds?"

b: "um.....(sniff)...nooo. why?"

m: "because ( Read more... )

seeing as how the u.s. government has pretty much shut down until the new year, i've found myself with absolutely nothing to do so far this week. when i say, "absolutely nothing to do," i do, in fact, actually mean it in the very literal sense (so far as it relates to work) which means i have basically been sitting in my office for four days ( Read more... )

 
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so, today's a pretty big day here in the u.s. of a. all controversy aside, it's pretty fantastic that we the people have the opportunity  to elect either a black man as president or a (crazy right wing nut job lipstick wearing, moose hunting, hockey watching, bible thumping) woman as vice president. i can't believe it's taken us more than 200 years ( Read more... )

so apparently money doesn't buy class. or a new shower curtain.

we went to richmond over the weekend to "celebrate" the marriage of a "friend" who shortly after breaking off a 12 year long relationship with someone i absolutely adore, decided to marry himself a chinese "girl".

i say "celebrate" because frankly i didn't really give a shit about the ( Read more... )