Turnabout
After this cut there will be a lot of babbling about myself, self-questioning and drawings.
It seams like I found the pleasure for drawing again by drawing my own characters. I guess it's because since I'm the only one that drawn then, I'm the only one that I can compare with. It makes me see that I evolved, what fills me with satisfaction. When it comes to fandom I have the bad habit of compare my work with everybody else (even people a lot older or people that work with art) and recognize that my drawing have so many fails break my ego in pieces and I get depressed. I know I'm being childish and there always will be people that is better than me, but I still haven't discovered the method to put away those feelings.
Talking about being childish, I'm trying to fight against one of my biggest childish fears: The aversion for obligations. I've got a big problem when it comes to drawn not because I want, but because I need. Since I what to work with it this disliking may be a big problem to me. In order to fight against it I took a few commissions for this mouth and made a oath with myself to fulfil all of them!
Until this moment I failed miserably.
Back to the first subject:
This is a drawing of my OCs, Mandarine (right) and Hilde (left), that I made to practice line-art with pencil. I kind of liked how it came out :)
It seams like I found the pleasure for drawing again by drawing my own characters. I guess it's because since I'm the only one that drawn then, I'm the only one that I can compare with. It makes me see that I evolved, what fills me with satisfaction. When it comes to fandom I have the bad habit of compare my work with everybody else (even people a lot older or people that work with art) and recognize that my drawing have so many fails break my ego in pieces and I get depressed. I know I'm being childish and there always will be people that is better than me, but I still haven't discovered the method to put away those feelings.
Talking about being childish, I'm trying to fight against one of my biggest childish fears: The aversion for obligations. I've got a big problem when it comes to drawn not because I want, but because I need. Since I what to work with it this disliking may be a big problem to me. In order to fight against it I took a few commissions for this mouth and made a oath with myself to fulfil all of them!
Until this moment I failed miserably.
Back to the first subject:
This is a drawing of my OCs, Mandarine (right) and Hilde (left), that I made to practice line-art with pencil. I kind of liked how it came out :)