Father!!!
<"So my mom thinks my Dad has left state to get out of paying child support for me. She woke me up today saying, her child support lawyer is trying to track my dad down, but they think he went out of state. I haven't talked to my dad since the surprise phillies game I brought him to for his birthday. And this is how he repays me. Now, I have to hear it from my mom saying that she's such a good person because she won't go to a trip in November that she had planned because she needs to buy me stuff for school. Well, mom, if you were such a good mom you wouldn't give me all that guilt. Sorry my dad hates me and that I go to school and you can't go to Cancun with your friends even though you are going next summer anyway. And my sister is coming today so she can hear it too. It's like music to our ears. No child support for me, so I get to hear how that effects my mom and bob. They don't know how much it bothers me to hear them talk about it. I'm crying when she tells me, but she's to busy putting my dad down. I don't even care if my dad is in another state or country. It's not like he cried and was mad when I was born because he didn't want another girl... oh wait yes he did.">
It seems that I am jealous of all the girls who don't care what people think about them. They cuoldn't care less what anyone had to say about them and I envy that mentality. Like Nancy Drew and Holly Golightly. They couldn't care two balls what people said, they just did whatever made them happy. Instead of wanting to be like someone I should just be more like... me, confident, cool, collected? I don't know the word for it is, but I know that all of you reading this know what I am talkig about. Nancy Drew said anything, wore anything , and went everywhere she pleased. Holy Golightly was not afraid to walk in the street in a sleek black dress and sun glasses to a jewlery shop. I want that leisure! No, I'm tired of wanting. I am going to do it and get it. If I want to break dance on the black top in a shop rite parking lot- I am going to do it! Easier said that done I'm afraid.
I mean, I don't suck too much at life. I do have great firends, family, a vehicle, and a paying job. My love life sucks, but that's only a little department in my life that hasn't taken off yet. If it ever does. I'm tired of looking for inspiration from another. I can have role models, but I also want to be my own role model- if that makes sense. It's time to grow up just a little more through confidence. Not too much but enough. I am going to take that gallon of chocolate chip mint ice cream and run with it! If I want my life a certain way- I gotta make it happen right? The outcome has to be better than this.
Two completely opposite topics for this entry today. Am I bi-polar?
Anyway, I am planning to stay at my sister and john's place in Philly. Thank god I need to get outta here. But I had nothing planned for Fourth of July and either did the family, so I am going with them to see 'The Transformers!' and a band called Hall and Oates? It should be fun. John has TEEVO (or something awesome for your television) and a huge comic book and movie collection. Oh yeah, plus, my sister...haha just kidding!!!
I can't wait to LLLLLLLLLLEEEEAAAAAVVVVVVVEEEEEEEE!!!
It seems that I am jealous of all the girls who don't care what people think about them. They cuoldn't care less what anyone had to say about them and I envy that mentality. Like Nancy Drew and Holly Golightly. They couldn't care two balls what people said, they just did whatever made them happy. Instead of wanting to be like someone I should just be more like... me, confident, cool, collected? I don't know the word for it is, but I know that all of you reading this know what I am talkig about. Nancy Drew said anything, wore anything , and went everywhere she pleased. Holy Golightly was not afraid to walk in the street in a sleek black dress and sun glasses to a jewlery shop. I want that leisure! No, I'm tired of wanting. I am going to do it and get it. If I want to break dance on the black top in a shop rite parking lot- I am going to do it! Easier said that done I'm afraid.
I mean, I don't suck too much at life. I do have great firends, family, a vehicle, and a paying job. My love life sucks, but that's only a little department in my life that hasn't taken off yet. If it ever does. I'm tired of looking for inspiration from another. I can have role models, but I also want to be my own role model- if that makes sense. It's time to grow up just a little more through confidence. Not too much but enough. I am going to take that gallon of chocolate chip mint ice cream and run with it! If I want my life a certain way- I gotta make it happen right? The outcome has to be better than this.
Two completely opposite topics for this entry today. Am I bi-polar?
Anyway, I am planning to stay at my sister and john's place in Philly. Thank god I need to get outta here. But I had nothing planned for Fourth of July and either did the family, so I am going with them to see 'The Transformers!' and a band called Hall and Oates? It should be fun. John has TEEVO (or something awesome for your television) and a huge comic book and movie collection. Oh yeah, plus, my sister...haha just kidding!!!
I can't wait to LLLLLLLLLLEEEEAAAAAVVVVVVVEEEEEEEE!!!