It's kinda hard to post when you really have nothing going on in your life. And, no offense, I feel like I got the cold shoulder from you... so that had effected my contact.
I haven't really had a reason to tell anyone about my life. I work, I come home, I sleep, I play a few video games, I don't go out anymore, I have karate twice a week and then it's right back to work again.
It blows... but it's predictable. Predictable won't hurt me. I hate the world and most of the people in it. Inside, I've just about given up on all of you. The people I've been in contact with don't write back or call anymore, so that doesn't help. I have no one to love or put my energy in.
I'm stuck where I'm at. I don't want to be, but there's no other alternative. People have told me "go out and meet some new people" or "go to the bar and hang out". People my age are assholes and only care about themselves or gossiping about other people.
Aside from my last comment, it appears that your right.
"I can't stand anymore... I hate this place and I hate everything. I've made terrible decisions to shun those who were there for me. I've just made a mess of everything."
Well, that was me. I told you that you'd shun me away again. This makes the, what, 3rd time you've done this. I care about you... you've just got to stop pushing me away.
I won't say another word because I'll just be repearting myself. Hopefully you still have my #. (596-9945) You can call if you life. I'll always listen. I can't force you to do anything... you have to make your own mistakes and learn from them.
Haha. I've shun everyone it seems. I'm trying to make things right for me so i can be there for other people, but it's harder than it seems. I just broke down after the whole Keith incident. I havn't talked with anyone from vt since the incident an have blocked out the world because I don't want it to hapen again.
It's just upsetting even more cause I was emotionally attached to him... I mean anyone would be. He was there for me for oer a year. He was one of my best friends for a very long time and got to know me very well...
So don't take any of this personally.... I'm just licking my wounds. You should've seen this curl back from society coming... I mean I'm only human, despite the lack of emotions I'm trying to have.
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I haven't really had a reason to tell anyone about my life. I work, I come home, I sleep, I play a few video games, I don't go out anymore, I have karate twice a week and then it's right back to work again.
It blows... but it's predictable. Predictable won't hurt me. I hate the world and most of the people in it. Inside, I've just about given up on all of you. The people I've been in contact with don't write back or call anymore, so that doesn't help. I have no one to love or put my energy in.
I'm stuck where I'm at. I don't want to be, but there's no other alternative. People have told me "go out and meet some new people" or "go to the bar and hang out". People my age are assholes and only care about themselves or gossiping about other people.
This is just a bad time for me, I guess.
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"I can't stand anymore... I hate this place and I hate everything. I've made terrible decisions to shun those who were there for me. I've just made a mess of everything."
Well, that was me. I told you that you'd shun me away again. This makes the, what, 3rd time you've done this. I care about you... you've just got to stop pushing me away.
I won't say another word because I'll just be repearting myself. Hopefully you still have my #. (596-9945) You can call if you life. I'll always listen. I can't force you to do anything... you have to make your own mistakes and learn from them.
Take care.
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It's just upsetting even more cause I was emotionally attached to him... I mean anyone would be. He was there for me for oer a year. He was one of my best friends for a very long time and got to know me very well...
So don't take any of this personally.... I'm just licking my wounds. You should've seen this curl back from society coming... I mean I'm only human, despite the lack of emotions I'm trying to have.
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