i just got done talking with friends about what i should do about this girl i like i didnt get to talk to her much so i wasnt realy sure about if it would be a good idea to ask her out ( why do i fucking hesitate). i made up my mind to just say something to her about it not ask her out in general but just say what was on my mind about her. it turns ( Read more... )

lately ive been walking around with a smile on my face even though i feel like shit on the inside so im gonna feel happy and look like shit and see what happens i have no idea how im supposed to feel happy but im still gonna do it

im over one and stuck on another. i told what i had to say we talked it all seems like it will be fine. the one thats gone i know is gone for good, which means less depression on my journey ( Read more... )

i got myself a JOB i gonna start work tommorow and thats gonna be nice im not sure if im still gonna go to prom alot of my feelings have changed and im thinking about just not going ( Read more... )

why does she treat me like a doll thats lost all value why cant she look at me longer than 30 seconds without discuss why cant that first 2hrs last forever why did you have to think about us and how we couldnt be. i was fine melting in your eyes for a time. it must be my fault. i doubted too much i let it go too far. i told you it was ok i let ( Read more... )

what the hell is going on? why suddenly everybody needs somebody? everyone is on this constant search for a relationship or just meaningless sex. some people dont want the people that want them. mean if i liked someone that doesnt like me but i know that they know that i like them but they dont have the guts to say no they would rather ignore ( Read more... )

this is the first time ive been able to use the internet privately for a long time ( Read more... )

holy fucking shit i hate school so much ( Read more... )

i dont want people to be worried or anything but if i act weird or seem not ok theres nothing that can be done about it at the moment im sure ill be fine and this depressed thing probably wont last very long(hopefully). but im glad you are there for me but as long as i can keep busy with out being bored for a long time ill be happy. there are ( Read more... )

school sucks, i live in a hotel and this is the second time and its a crappier hotel theres nothing to do but school work my teachers are crazy my schedule is out the gate and im not eating school lunch which apparently makes you realy fuckin tired ( Read more... )