Well it has been a slow week for me this time, only thing of interest is my hiv test...it was NEG. So I go back in 6 months to verify but it looks good and I have been able to sleep.

Peace, Love, and Jelly Dounuts

Well it is Tuesday already and that means time for my weekly update. Not really sure how I got into this routine, but it seems to be working for me ( Read more... )

This post is for select viewing. I need advice, I need wisdom of others. I need to get my mind focused. The title says it all. I am very much in love, again never has been the issue with Gypsy. With the loss of so much of our dynamic, and with so much of what I need being lost, I am in a constant state of heartache. I love her with all that I am ( Read more... )

So another week gone by, some good as come and some not so good. One thing atleast is down right bad. Some of you may notice this post is an edit. Below are lyrics to a song that really struck a chord with me this week and was posted to select group to keep some things from causing an issue. I am reposting it to all and debating removing the ( Read more... )

Ok, maybe not. Joss has not gotten back to me yet about this. Gypsy however did come home tonight and while the reunion was nothing that either of us hoped it would be, she did slay more than a few of my demons. It really felt good to hold her that first time again in the airport. Then the fun began...two cats are M.I.A. the bed got ruined by one ( Read more... )

This week has been rather rough on me. I have had to relive a recurring real life nightmare. I have had my own flaws and weakness shown to me is stark contrast to the way I try to live. I have reached out for something to help apply focus to my mind, and fallen flat on my face. I have indirectly been called an immature, abusive, dangerous waste of ( Read more... )

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified!) about what people remember about you.

So it has been a long time since I have posted anything here, and there have been lots of changes to my life ( Read more... )

So last night I made it out to my first TNG event in over a year. I realized as I was getting ready, that it is my first outing at all since the break up. I have to admit that I almost did not go...I was looking for excuses to back out of it. If I had not made promises to certain people that I would be there I would not have gone. It seems to be ( Read more... )

Ok now I have indentified the lurker, and eliminated the trouble. If someone wants to make a comment about what is going on in my life, that is fine. No more hiding in the shadows, no more sniping from dark corners. Step into the light and show a spine. I will let you into the friends list, but no fraggen lurking. You have some thing to say, show a ( Read more... )