so i guess i fucked up bad and im so so sorry for fucking up your life i wish i could take it all back so i would never of met you. that way i wsould have never fell in love with you, and this woulod not be so hard. so now i am sitting here trying to get over you and well its not that easy i tried to replace you and well i cant i really cant i ( Read more... )

welll here gies......im on my gay bosses computer and im drunk i dont think i should be but oh well. i am REALLY DRUNK AND I WISH THIS STUPID HURRICANE WOULD TAKE US OUT SO I WOULD STOP HURTRING I MISS AMANDA BUT I GUESS I GOT TO GET OVER HER CAUSE WAKE UP BEN ITS OVER OOps i had capson. Oh well\. so i met this chic tina but i guess i cant handle ( Read more... )

so now here i sit not but maybe 3 friends in this entire world. i have nothign to look forward too im just waiting for the day i die i welcome death with open arms to take me away. but he never comes. i want to just forse him to come but i just cant bring myself to it i dont know why. but hey oh well i guess im not goijng anywhere i just dont ( Read more... )

so i moved out of joes and now im living with my good buddy levi. so i got access to the internet and stuff now. but now that it seems im doing better in life, except for one thing one person is missing and i cant take it anymore. certain t hings are said to let me know she still cares but sometimes that is not enought because of other reactions ( Read more... )

well last night i went to the movies with mike and his boyfriend and his roomate and her girlfriend. so i asked amanda if she wanted to go and well she did not really want to and well i dont think she even wants my company anymore she just complained the whole time. sure is was a cheesy movie but why i dont i know ( Read more... )

Has the last year and a half been wasste?

so when i go to take a fucking shower there is a note on the door form carol saying that i left a floater in the shitter. And of course the cunt lindsey could not of done it cause im sure she told carol that. cause you know me and i use a fucking entire roll toilet paper to wipe my baby killing vigina and asshole. so before i go take a shower i ( Read more... )

so i dont get to bed till after 5 ish this morning and well needless to say my alarm was going off till 9 05 this morning and it was set for 8 so yeah when im tired im nto getting up. anyways go to probation once again i got there about 10 and well i was back before 11 but he gave me 5 hours so its more punk rock that way. come home sit here going ( Read more... )

so i cant sleep its well almost 4 and yeah i have to be up soon which needless to say is not good ( Read more... )

maybe this is why i am always tired but i cant sleep maybe it is the fact that i have so many problamns to deal with or s it just im sick of working from the moment i wake up till the moment i go to sleep. it seems that way. and my day off seems to go buy way to dast and the days i works so slow ( Read more... )