thanks to everyone for your concern about me. I haven't heard anything from her mom and mostly becaus eher mom thinks I am satan or something. so I don't know anything about a funeral or obituary for her. All I know is that I am tring to focus and sleep. other than that i am reallly hurting.

my exgirlfriend just committed suicide. what else can i say?

I feel so alone.

there are so many things that I want to say to people to help them realize what they do. There are so many people in my house and I want to tell them to knock their bull-shit off. I hate that you know other people can;t addapt to you, you always have to adapt to them. arrrggghhh. anywho...I am hoping that I get the senior intership at my work I am ( Read more... )

so I got some stuff yesturday. I am happy about that. I am leaving for oklahoma on wednesday I am excite that I get to see my younger cousin graduate. I am proud of that. so my girlfriend is going to go do some painting to day . That's good cuz she needs to release some stress. I want to read but right now I really don't have the patience for it. ( Read more... )

YOu know I really love my girlfriend. I am trying so hard with her. We've been through so much together and she has been a great friend to me. granted though we have had our spats. Today she's at an interview. I hope that she gets in to the program that she wants to be in. She really deserves it. I hope that things go better for us, because I ( Read more... )

so I went to this ev ent yesturday with my work and well we got to ask the mayor of seattle 3 questions. I didn't really ask the mayor anything but, people from work did and I recorded it on a video camera. It's suprising how the mayor talks out of his ass. I wonder.... oh and I learned that the republicans don't want any teenagers to vote so if ( Read more... )

SO all my friends that live with me went out and I'm here with people way older than me. I am currently working on rearranging and cleaning my room. Almost all of my laundry is done I have a load to do later when everyone is up. I can't really sleep my girlfriend is out staying the night at her moms. So right now it's really hard to sleep well I ( Read more... )

so I got angry today and started acting irrationally towards someone eating my unfinished cheese cake. My girlfriend is mad at me for how irrational I was acting. I played pool today that was fun then I started reading an interesting book that I couldn't get my head out of and still need to finish. Anywho I guess I am such an ass hole. I didn't do ( Read more... )

So lately I've been kinda stressed. I am happy that I was able to get it out though. Then I got to cuddle with my girl all night, I was so happy about that waking up and I think that she woke up at the same times that I did. anywho that made me happy all night just to wake up and know that she was there. There's no one else I'd want to wake up to ( Read more... )