It's funny how stumbling upon a few photos can reignite the same stupid feelings that made you such a retard back in the day.

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CJ's newest kid, Mavrick, is the happiest baby I've ever seen. I mean, all the kid did was smile at stuff. In the course of the five or six hours we were there, he didn't cry at all. Just grinned and was an overall good baby until he fell asleep. Now that's the kind of kid I want. God knows how long that'll be though.

I'm far from out of quotes, in case you wondered. They always seem to echo when specific situations come up ( Read more... )

Why don't I just tear out my own heart and stomp on it? Because that's pretty much what I'm doing now anyway. But I guess what I dwell on really can't be helped that much. But damned if thinking about happy things makes me feel miserable. Is it possible to offer up the beaten remains of my soul to go back to that last happy moment ( Read more... )

True enough. But it's like TV says, "There's nothing worse than feeling alone, no matter how many people are around you ( Read more... )

God damn you, iTunes, you bastard. You're not allowed to be on random or party shuffle ever again.

Fucking Apple.

I never got my birthday present.

I miss holding hands. I miss two hours of talking about nothing at all. I miss the company. I miss hugs and kisses. I miss cuddling. I miss going places together. I miss the positive criticisms. I miss sleeping beside each other. I miss feeling wanted. I miss my future.

I miss my life. It's all gone.