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We'll call this one... "The enigmatic spectacle lost in the rays from its own sunlight, found in the waves of the ocean blue... in free-verse ( Read more... )

Lesson learned: never fail at something while a good song is stuck in my head... the song will instigate a flood of bad memories... however, the song too good to not listen to... so i suppose i should ignore that sinking feeling

So i went to this show tonight... it was cheap (well... ten bucks... but considering ive been paying 20-25 bucks for shows lately... thats cheap) ... the lineup was as followed: Too Pure To Die, As Blood Runs Black, Kataklysm, Sworn Enemy, and Suicide Silence... with names like that... you know the music is going to be positive and uplifting... i ( Read more... )

k... so im willing to acknowledge that maybe this wasnt what God wanted for me or something like that... of course i was willing to acknowledge that before... but you know me... i have to feel what im feeling... but anyways... really that just leaves me with another question... why then is what God wants for me never ever what i want for myself... ( Read more... )

days like this remind me to never be sure and confident of anything ever... cuz it just makes the rejection hurt more

Today was harder than it should have been... damn it...

at first i told myself "chin up" ... but i quickly realized that thats not needed... mainly cuz these days my chin is always up... its odd thinking how much ive changed the last few years... mainly im just not that cynical anymore... at least in certain ways... cuz i can still be a son of bitch when i want to... haha... but thats about it for now ( Read more... )

my only hope is that i didnt ruin our friendship too much...

recently all i can think about myself is that i am really bad at the things that make life important