du du du duh du du duh....................Yesterday i played my first gig on bass guitar. we'll technically my first gig period. You know with a crowd and stuff were people have 2 pay to get in.   i filled in for my good buddys in the band castaway. I didnt really know any of the bass parts, but im pretty good at figurin stuff out, so i rocked ( Read more... )

Shhhh....I hope you like it, just a little further. Were goin to a place thats the only place to go.The only place left when you've got no more hope than home. Where those dark dry leaves go, where they fall after being almost to heaven , to wither and die along frozen grey stone alleyways, in the only corners way out in the open. Curbside, along ( Read more... )

Honesty. its honesty that everything is lacking. its whats wrong with people, with this country and this world. its what fucks everyone up. its why people dont think they can be anything, they can never amount, they waste their whole life trying to atain a lie. its like if you based your life on catching this giant monster fish, and on your death ( Read more... )

my fingertips hurt. Its weird playing bass after concentrating on the guitar so long. cause with a guitar you want your hand 2 move as little as possible, but with a bass, the damn thing has a HUGE neck, your hand has too move all over the place.  The prices we must pay to become good musicians. lol

Wishes and prayers. Its the knowing and the waiting thats the hardest part. But at least there a reason to wake up every day. I think tonights a good night  4 it .  wishing and praying.  C'mon terri , please be right.

I SAW MIGHTY JOE FREAKIN PLUM............YEAH BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!

man those guys are great. my neck hurts, ears are ringin, and those dudes are freakin awesome. 

So i bought a butt load of cd's at FYE yesterday, cause they were all a quarter, and i only bought stuff from the 90's. i love doing this. i listened to all 16 of them yesterday, and we had some good, some bad , and some "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?"    standouts include the doughboys and truck stop love, and then the rest was so-so or terrible. there ( Read more... )

Im not sure if i understand the concept of subtlety. i dont think that i am a very subtle person. sometimes i feel maybe i should be, maybe its a more intelligent way of being, and then i think maybe everyone should die. I am loud and brash, i make hasty decisions, I use emotion as a fuel, i want to fight, i want to smash and destroy. i want people ( Read more... )

My heart suffers just to be. Im dying to exist. I feel it day by day, knowing theres not enough. A fight for nothing were always losing. Welcome to the real world, where everyones built of 20 dollar bills. Its paper happiness, paper love, paper hope, and paper lies. Money makes the man, at least a slave, it steals his soul, controls his actions, ( Read more... )

Anticipation is the worst part. The knowing and the waiting. believing and struggling, missing and denying. a little lost, a little late , and a little out of breath. you take steps, you prepare , you let yourself believe. then you get stuck , unstuck and stuck again. god, thats the hardest part. The knowing and the waiting. turn out the lights, ( Read more... )