Comments | biglooknolife: "today is the greatest day."

biglooknolife

"today is the greatest day."

Apr 22, 2004 12:25

I dont know why everyone is so sad that this has to happen. things will be much easier on everyone after what happens does. i will be writing in this shortly. this is such bullshit...The "straw that broke the camels back."=banning me from seeing summer, and selling my guitars. this is such bullshit, i mean, i can see everyone else at school. Summer ( Read more... )

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pessimisticcuts April 22 2004, 13:56:27 UTC

:'( please dont leave. life is a bitch. stop running away from it. I know you are sick of the same o'l cycle. but we all are. and we all put up with it. and your mom punished you because you deserve it.

biglooknolife April 22 2004, 14:13:27 UTC

i did deserve it, but its not all about me, im doing this to stop the pain for my family also, everything will turn out better with out me, im only running away from it because the monster that has become my life wont just stop, every once in a while, he'll take a break. then, it starts right when things start to get good for me. i cant settle for the grey life anymore, its not enough for me. and my mother will never be able to accept me for who i am. also, she is not just grounding me, as you know by now. she is taking this to a rediculous level, because she is just on a giant power trip.believe me, things will turn out for the better after this, you will see<3

pale_october April 22 2004, 17:49:42 UTC

"every once in a while, he'll take a break. then, it starts right when things start to get good for me"

i think i know what you mean. maybe not, but i'm pretty sure those short little breaks are what make life worth living. looking at only the good times you have makes the bad ones come easier.

voiddroiddrone April 22 2004, 15:31:38 UTC

yeah. maybe you want sympathy. but im not going to give it to you. im not going to give you the attention either. you are smarter then this...well im hoping you are. and this "thing" will only make things worse. you will be caught sooner or later. and yeah. maybe im wrong, but to you it seems girls are material posessions. you've known summer for what? a month now? maybe a little more? and shes one of the most dearest people in your life? thats bullshit. and you know it. stop acting like your life is all that bad. none of our lives are. you did something stupid, start acting like a young man and take it. running away from life will not bring you any sort of freedom but put you into some other prison that you wish you never got into. you wont do anything if you knows whats good for you...and if you don't..you are going to have to find out about it the hard way.

voiddroiddrone April 22 2004, 20:02:47 UTC

you know nigel. whatever. do what will make you happy. because thats what life is allll about. making yourself happy. and i don't care what you do. im just not going to support it. because in my opinion. its stupid. not only is it stupid..its stupid to broadcast it like you did. instead of doing quietly in the night you had to and tell us your plans in mid daylight. i hope its fun learning the hard way.

gigantic. clearvampire April 22 2004, 20:09:26 UTC

PLEASSSE call mee right now, when you get this comment, I want to talk.
Oh, and about this entry... I dont care Nigel, I'm still going to see you no matter what.
There are things I want to tell you about this situation.. but I cant, cause you wounldnt listen. But its ok.
You are my friend Nigel. You always will be and I'm always going to be there. You know this. I'm happy though that you care enough for us to stay. You're not taking the chicken's way out. You havent had those thoughts yet... if you know what i mean. But you will once you're out of your own. And when those thoughts come to you, you need to call me, of I can get your head straight. This IS a bigger deal than you think kid. You dont understand maybe now, but its hard for us ( us being stupid huntington kids) to go to school and not see you there. More people care about you than you think. But you shut them away... hahahaha. I dont even know why you little jerk off. But you do. And that's fine ( ... )

velvetxeyes April 22 2004, 20:22:19 UTC

Nigel, stop fishing for sympathy. This is bullshit and you know it.

heartshapedhurt April 23 2004, 00:11:33 UTC

she is just a girl. and things will look up, they always do. i don't think in 80 years you will be like oh if only my parents let me see summer my whole life would be complete. things happen for a reason, everything is meant to happen how it does, it all has a pattern, sometimes if we let some sad things happen for a while good things will come, running away won't do anything but make you end up im college hospital and make your parents want to put even more restraints on you because they are worried that you will get hurt. in a little while you will be old enough to do what you want, if it doesn't feel good right now just wait, and whatever you need now, if its worth it, it will wait for you as well..