zach i luv you but your pushing me away

[bigmouth88]

life seems different when your in luv

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I'm trying to pull you back....I'm trying my damnedest

[my_worst_fears]

LAUREN, oh god, I don't mean to hurt you, and you know all I want is for it to be what it was, what it can be. You made me cry, I hurt inside too. Lauren, I am trying, but you realize you have changed...it hurts to know that you don't feel the same. You don't tell me you loev me and goodnight anymore, you don't tell me when I am doing things right anymore. I know you care about me, and I know you love me too. I don't hate your friends, it's just you used to call me at night, no matter what, and now....now you don't, and it hurts. I loved our phone conversations, and now they are gone. What I wouldn't give for that, what I wouldn't give for us. For you....I am giving everything I can, I just want you to change back, I want to hear I love you for nothing, I want to get little messages about me being cute, like you used to, I want to feel like you have time for me, and that I'm not just fading away. Thats why I get so upset sometimes, cause you seem to have time to go out with friends, but not to call me and say goodnight. Oh god, I can'

Re: I'm trying to pull you back....I'm trying my damnedest

[my_worst_fears]

I can still see myself with you 10 years from now...can you? I don't want to lose you again. Please, try for me...cause I need you, your smile, your laugh, that look that you give me when I am acting like a tard. You know the one. Lauren I could sit and look at you all day, you are amazing, I don't want you to go away. You know what you mean to me, but if you can't try and I am. Nothings gonna change. I'm not asking you to change....from what you used to be, before I made you what you are. I wish I could take it back. I wish I could try all over again, but I don't want to lose the memories I have had with you. Please, let me come back in. Please, dont' go away...and leave me here...an empty shell, if you go, you take all of me with you...I will be nothing. I never meant to hurt you, from the start I tried not to. It hurts right now, I didn't mean to do this, and I'm crying from my own mistakes. I give anything to talk to you right now....I wish I could say goodnight to you and tell you how much I love you. Please lets try, lets try

Re: I'm trying to pull you back....I'm trying my damnedest

[my_worst_fears]

LAUREN I TRUST YOU, I TRUST YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART, IT HAS JUST TAKEN A WHILE, I PROMISE, I SWEAR ON MY LIFE. I AM IN THIS, I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN. I JUST WANT IT TO BE OK. HUGS AND KISSES....OH GOD I WISH THEY WERE REAL.....I WISH I COULD TOUCH YOUR FACE, AND ALWAYS WAKE UP NEXT TO YOU. I AM STILL CRYING. I LOVE YOU, MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW. I ALWAYS WILL. OH, THIS HURTS SO BAD....I JUST WANT TO HOLD YOU. TO KNOW YOU ARE OK, THAT WE ARE OK. I LOVE YOU, HOPEFULLY I CAN TALK TO YOU SOON.

I can't believe it

[my_worst_fears]

I just read through some of your posts....I screwed up so much. I just want to be us. It can happen. I hope it does, it's all up to you now. I am just waiting, anxious, nervous, scared. I hope you can be ok. Please keep me in your life, please keep me updated. I want you to find yourself, and I will be there waiting. As always, I won't leave, no matter how long it takes...I have waited before....2 years, 2 weeks....and now it's unknown, but know that I will still be here. "I'll wait right here until I see that smile
That says we're us again." You know I will, I can't wait to see you, and I hope it's tomorrow, I love you, bye baby...have a goodnight.