What's wrong with self pity?

[bignrichcowgirl]

I've been banned from self-loathing. Damn. That was one of my current favorite pastimes (not!), but it's awful difficult not to slip into the depressed "kill-the-world" mode when it's all going to hell in a handbasket.

I'm jobless because I lost my temper and quit, and I have truck payment and insurance and every other little bill, plus rent. That'

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[irishshowjumper]

Sorry to hear about the job, but hey maybe a fresh start could be good, y'know? Change can be good sometimes! :) & MAJOR bummer about the financial aid, geez that really blows! Seriously I feel just awful for ya, I hope you can work something out with that.

Major *hugs* about your mother-in-law, that must be rough. & I'm sure your boyfriend didn't mean it that way, I mean he probably doesn't blame you for her bitchiness though I know it's hard not to think of it that way.

I hope things start to look up for you soon, I'll keep ya in my thoughts. & you definitely shouldn't hate yourself, those things are NOT your fault, you couldn't help being sick, you can't help it if your mother-in-law is batshit crazy etc... so no blaming yourself & therefore no hating yourself, okay? You're a sweet girl and if you ever want to talk I promise I'm a good listener! Take care, okay?

[bignrichcowgirl]

I'm afraid a fresh start is inevitable. In my unemployed-ness, I've been working away on the model ponies and other miscellaneous art projects (I'm tooling a lovely console cover for my truck).

I think when my boyfriend told me that, he meant for it to make me feel better... but I know the person that I was living with, and one moment she would be lovely, then the next I would hear that she told my boyfriend he'd better wise up about me because I was just trying to trap him with a kid. And the moment I decided to leave? She was ranting at 5 in the morning how I never do anything ever. *shrug* most people would hate her, and if MY mom did anything remotely similar to him what she did to me, he probably would leave me or at the very least never speak to her again. Forget getting married. The wedding would be hell. So much for THAT idea.

[thefaeriegirl]

*hugs*