turning into things they never thought they'd be

[bil_lie]

I'm standing in the middle of the desert
waiting for my ship to come in
and now no joker, no jack or king
can take this losing hand and make it winI just want one day - no, one hour where I don't have to worry about how fucking in debt I am, or how unclear the next few months are, or whether or not I'm going to have a job in five weeks. I don't

Comments

[luc1pher]

Sorry to hear about your financial issues, dear :(.

A ton of my friends are in the same boat as you and I kinda feel like an outsider looking in, with the expression of a tit (whatever that may be) on my face.

I hope you land that full time job at 44K a year though!

[bil_lie]

Yeah, I guess people don't really get it until they're trying to do everything on their own themselves... I know I didn't haha :S

But thanks, I hope so too and it's looking pretty good so we shall cross our fingers and wait it out *crosses fingers... and toes... and arms... and eyes... and legs... and everything else remotely crossable under the sun :|*

[finger_tips]

hey dear... one thing at a time and you will get through all of this. you really need to follow your heart when it comes to where you will live. no rushing and it will all fall into place. Montreal isn't going anywhere, so of course you need to do what is best in the longrun.
I hope you get the job. they'd be stupid to refuse you.

I hope you can start eating soon, we need you healthy!
xx

[bil_lie]

Haha I hope I can start eating soon too... it'd be nice although it really hasn't been that bad, I don't really get hungry ever anymore... which probably isn't a good thing :|

And yeah, thats pretty much what I'm doing, I just hate that constant feeling that my life's on hold until all these things and situations around me straighten themselves out, makes me feel very not in control of my own life which is frustrating :S

Oh well, I do believe it'll work out, just some times less than others which is generally when I succumb to spewing out these lj rants haha

but thanks m'dear, hope all is well for you and I hope that cold is gone :s

*love*

- Jojo