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[billyjoel83]

im sorry, just felt like talking. knew you were busy. just missed you. feeling pretty down today. wondering about how much free time there will be. back a while ago there was a talk and you said that you wanted to know whether the future had us both in it. i said you can never know till you get there. it is true. i do admit that part of me would

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[briar_faerie]

"No day but today" - Rent
We should really try to enjoy the present, and not worry about the future. I really think that any conflicts that would arise for us would have to do with our careers, not a lack of caring for each other. I'd like to think there is a lot of love between us.
I wasn't trying to be nasty with the abrubt goodbye. I wanted to hear that you love me, but you didn't say it because you didn't know what I wanted to hear. You're not a mind reader, you couldn't know, its not your fault. I get lonely too. I want reassurance.
I'm sorry that there hasn't been a lot of us time lately. I'm terrified of upsetting the other girls so I'm really trying to do all I can to make the apartment nice. Please know that I would really rather spend time with you. I really don't think you realize how much I love you. When I fall in love, I fall hard.
I'm rambling so I'm just going to stop now.
I love you.
Bri

[billyjoel83]

when i am silent on the phone, its cause im hoping there is more to say, cause i want to keep talking to you. and then i just blank out. there are times that im on my way somewhere and i know when im done talking. then sometimes that i just want to keep it going. ive just been afraid, afraid that you had doubts when we had that talk, afraid that im gonna go crazy or something, afraid of being so afraid that ill screw something up. seeing you convinced at that moment made me spend so much time thinking about it and then having the same thoughts/fears/worries myself. im not worried about some of your time being taken by the appartment. thats understandable. i just really needed to get some things out and i didnt want to worry you when you were in the middle of working on your place. unfortunately worrying is part of me, because im week, no one really sees it cause its inside, and also when people do see me there are no problems because people are all i need. and when theres time that i have nothing or no one there, thats when i get down