I'm trying to figure out ( Read more... )

I keep waiting for the phone to ring ( Read more... )

My belt loosens slowly ( Read more... )

can't remember ( Read more... )

when i see her eyes ( Read more... )

its fucking 5:30 in the morning. nighmares, nightmares of you holding me the twisting off my read like a bottle cap. then walking away with him. thats what youve done ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE YOU! i cant believe what ur doing to me. put my body and soul into a wood chipper and turn it on full. thats what ur doing to me. i hate that you lied to me, lead me to believe your lies, turned on me, still lie to me. I hate the way i cant walk away. i hate the way you cant escape my mind.. i hate the way i dont hate you. youve ( Read more... )

well im back from filling up my car with gas. that was fun.......not. well driving was fun. it calmed me down, i forgot about my problems, and now im home. home shit home. my dads being a real ass. he called me a pig and an idiot(his exact words were) "ur not the smartest knife in the drawer" i feel horrible right now. i really do. oh well thats

well, now that i am somewhat sane i can tell you what happened. its exactly what i knew was going to happen, i got passed over for the ass hole. yep she made up her mind and im not what she wants. im not mad im just dissapointed in myself for letting myself far for her. im attempting to figure out why she didnt pick me. but she wont respond. well ( Read more... )

now i know why i never fucking give my heart away. I HATE myself i hate my emotions i hate my personality. its just not good enough for anyone or anything. why did she have to tell me she loved me, why did she have to lead me on. WHY GOD! WHAT do you do this to me every day , i hate you god i hate what youve done to me. why couldnt she have told me ( Read more... )