A new post! Scandalous!
I'm posting this for two reasons. One, cause I haven't posted in awhile and should update you (the end is near!! Yay!), and two cause I got my first mean anonymouse (I feel like I'm a real blogger now). I was going to screen their comment, but I don't really like doing that and they brought up a semi-valid point (amongst a bit of bleh).
I rant a lot on this blog and mostly about negative stuff and don't have much positive to say. Why? Well, it's partly because I really suck at communication. I keep things bottled up to a ridiculous point and then it comes out and I end up being unreasonable about one thing when I did have valid points about previous things that I never mentioned. James has to bear a lot of that (and he is oh so kind about it) but sometimes it's nice to get it out in another forum. And my lj lets me do that. I leave it public mostly because I figured no one would ever read it and if they do, I almost never name names. Since this blog is getting linked to off of my fiance's site which is hosting our wedding site, I'll probably be friends-locking more posts. But it's nice to get things off my chest in a semi-safe place as most of the people I can talk to are really busy themselves or are not around. I don't do it for sympathy, although I will note that I really appreciated the e-mail and call I got from two of my friends after my last post. I've had a really taxing term and even though I may not have said it at the time, I really really appreciated that support. I was in a rather rough place at that time and it meant a lot to me.
Anyways, long story short, instead of a complainy post this will be a yay, so awesome post. A post of glee and saying nice things. For example, James is the awesomest awesome and none of you can have him. He is my squishy genius. And my supervisor would rock your world with his coolness. He is smart and nice (*waits to hear other grad students squeal in jealousy*). Someone close to him has cancer and he shaved his head for moral support, and to help take their mind (and their family's minds) off of the cancer and on to the funny. He even wore sunglasses and a bandanna (sp?) and said yo! which is hilarious because he is no biker dude. And he's letting me take off my "Nervous breakdown Prevention" time this summer. Can't get no better than that.
And my TA partners are so awesome for putting up with my running around trying to figure stuff out during labs. And the other students in my research lab are all way cooler and smarter than me and I am proud to say it. No seriously, they are the SMARTS. We got some crazy achievers here. And I think it is so awesome that there are so many super smart female scientist students here as well. Someday I will know as much as the neuroscience grad student. Someday! I'll probably never be quite as self-sufficient and confident as she is though. I can try though! And my advanced MRI prof is really patient with me. That may not mean much to most people but I am so very demanding with my questions. I enter "DO NOT UNDERSTAND" mode and it takes forever for him to answer all of my crazy questions but he does! And he's like that with all of us. He'll probably never finish his own work at this rate. :-( And my friends are pretty cool (although I am sad that most of them do not live in Hali). One of them calls long distance from Italy every week lately to talk and another is painting flower pots and putting together toilet paper roll thingies (do not ask, for you probably do not want to know :-)) for my wedding. And another sends me supportive e-mails and another is going to go shoe shopping and jewellery shopping with me. So there.
I know I'm really lucky with all I have. It's pretty fast-paced and high stress at times though and sometimes I don't really deal well. Those are times I usually end up here which may give you a skewed view (although this semester was one of the worst I've had). But only two weeks of class and if I can make it to mid to late April I will be home free! No working magnet until July or August but at least we have a direction and plan for me now so I feel much better.
Edit: Because this page is possibly linked to from somewhere off my wedding site I have friends locked some of the posts. I apologize but they were really only intended for my venting purposes and I wouldn't want someone to get the wrong idea when I'm just letting off steam.
I rant a lot on this blog and mostly about negative stuff and don't have much positive to say. Why? Well, it's partly because I really suck at communication. I keep things bottled up to a ridiculous point and then it comes out and I end up being unreasonable about one thing when I did have valid points about previous things that I never mentioned. James has to bear a lot of that (and he is oh so kind about it) but sometimes it's nice to get it out in another forum. And my lj lets me do that. I leave it public mostly because I figured no one would ever read it and if they do, I almost never name names. Since this blog is getting linked to off of my fiance's site which is hosting our wedding site, I'll probably be friends-locking more posts. But it's nice to get things off my chest in a semi-safe place as most of the people I can talk to are really busy themselves or are not around. I don't do it for sympathy, although I will note that I really appreciated the e-mail and call I got from two of my friends after my last post. I've had a really taxing term and even though I may not have said it at the time, I really really appreciated that support. I was in a rather rough place at that time and it meant a lot to me.
Anyways, long story short, instead of a complainy post this will be a yay, so awesome post. A post of glee and saying nice things. For example, James is the awesomest awesome and none of you can have him. He is my squishy genius. And my supervisor would rock your world with his coolness. He is smart and nice (*waits to hear other grad students squeal in jealousy*). Someone close to him has cancer and he shaved his head for moral support, and to help take their mind (and their family's minds) off of the cancer and on to the funny. He even wore sunglasses and a bandanna (sp?) and said yo! which is hilarious because he is no biker dude. And he's letting me take off my "Nervous breakdown Prevention" time this summer. Can't get no better than that.
And my TA partners are so awesome for putting up with my running around trying to figure stuff out during labs. And the other students in my research lab are all way cooler and smarter than me and I am proud to say it. No seriously, they are the SMARTS. We got some crazy achievers here. And I think it is so awesome that there are so many super smart female scientist students here as well. Someday I will know as much as the neuroscience grad student. Someday! I'll probably never be quite as self-sufficient and confident as she is though. I can try though! And my advanced MRI prof is really patient with me. That may not mean much to most people but I am so very demanding with my questions. I enter "DO NOT UNDERSTAND" mode and it takes forever for him to answer all of my crazy questions but he does! And he's like that with all of us. He'll probably never finish his own work at this rate. :-( And my friends are pretty cool (although I am sad that most of them do not live in Hali). One of them calls long distance from Italy every week lately to talk and another is painting flower pots and putting together toilet paper roll thingies (do not ask, for you probably do not want to know :-)) for my wedding. And another sends me supportive e-mails and another is going to go shoe shopping and jewellery shopping with me. So there.
I know I'm really lucky with all I have. It's pretty fast-paced and high stress at times though and sometimes I don't really deal well. Those are times I usually end up here which may give you a skewed view (although this semester was one of the worst I've had). But only two weeks of class and if I can make it to mid to late April I will be home free! No working magnet until July or August but at least we have a direction and plan for me now so I feel much better.
Edit: Because this page is possibly linked to from somewhere off my wedding site I have friends locked some of the posts. I apologize but they were really only intended for my venting purposes and I wouldn't want someone to get the wrong idea when I'm just letting off steam.