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birdiebird

My Point of Veiw!!!

Jul 31, 2006 15:01

WARNING: IF YOU DON'T WANT MY OPINION, OR IF YOU ARE TOO BITTER ABOUT THE SITUATION IN YOUR LIFE do not CONTINUE READING. I AM NOT GOING TO CENSOR MYSELF..... AT ALL ( Read more... )

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fabulousnotion July 31 2006, 23:06:53 UTC

I honestly don't know what my stance in all this is either, Annie. And I love you too, I really do. I got stuck in a bad place with this.. and I was already stuck in a bad place with Holly. I love her, but she can't seem to decide how she feels about me. One minute, I'm her friend, and then the other, she's telling Micha, Amy and Mom and her myspace friends how annoying I am and how I should keep off her back. I try to steer clear from doing thing to annoy her or get on her nerves.. but it just ends up turning worse in the end.. I can't win ( ... )

XOXO birdiebird July 31 2006, 23:45:52 UTC

I don't understand how horrible it must be for you.... this is pain, and drama that as a non-flesh and blood family member you should not have to experience... But at the same token you were welcomed into the home with open arms and considered part of the whole lot... I am not sure, but she may have to just find some scape goat for her anger, and unfortunately that might be you!!! Grin, bare it and the lesson that you are supposed to learn will be priceless!!!

Re: XOXO fabulousnotion July 31 2006, 23:55:17 UTC

I do understand that I was welcomed in with open arms. And I try desperately to let that take the doubt and worry away.. but when you conciously know that someone you're living with doesn't appreciate your presence.. and then proceeds to go around and tell her friends.. who are also my friends.. about how I should just be on my own because I'm over eighteen..

It hurts to face that. And I cut her a lot of slack. I left her alone, gave her space, and prayed and waited for a chance when I felt like it'd be okay to approach her. And then it was turned around that she thought I was mad at her. Which wasn't the case at all... her acceptance was really important to me, and I knew I wouldn't get it.. and you know what.. It's fine. Whatever. I'll wait... I'm just hurt. And lost about it. I though that this drama was all past... but it ended up not being so. I try and try and just get thrown back in the end.

Thank you very much Annie. I love you, and hearing what you have to say is encouraging.

angelsanitarium July 31 2006, 23:13:44 UTC

Thank you Annie, I don't think my bit was lectured. It hurts, alot. And I wanna keep crying, and maybe pouring heart out in posts isn't such a good idea. But at least people liked the cats. I really have no idea how to pull this wad of emo out. I was told to not let her sleep over there. But Mom's breaking more and more, and I ...am really lost right now as to what to do. And I don't know if it's so much betrayal as just a really really selfish attitude. I'm really really mad though, but I understand, I do. I ( ... )

Not Condeming!!! birdiebird July 31 2006, 23:55:48 UTC

I am not condeming you or your post.... and I am not trying place blame, and stop you or micha from verbally journaling your feelings.... I am just got a to a point where... YOU KNOW... I know that you are hurting... and you are lost in a place to go... The only place that i can suggest is the bible.... There is always comfort there, and Love... and God will show you what you need and you the key that will get all of the emotions and pain in a constructive way!!! Make sure Micha knows that I am not judging or condeming her... BUT all of you need to understand that there are people that will listen... but that only helps if you actually want to talk.... I will listen, but I will not force conversation.... that ball is in your court....
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If she needs to yell at me... I will take it, with open arms!!!

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Re: Not Condeming!!! angelsanitarium August 1 2006, 00:24:55 UTC

I love you too, and I didn't think you were openly condeming the posts, BUT I know... that they weren't the best idea, and they were written in not so good feelings. Atleast on my part. I can't speak for Micha. :/ And...yes... glarg. I LOVE you very much Annie, and I know people will listen, and I am thankful for that.

P.S. birdiebird August 1 2006, 00:03:49 UTC

I wrote an e-mail to Holly on MySpace... and she did read it!!!

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bittering August 1 2006, 03:27:59 UTC

I apologize for that image and my comment. I do not condone abortion, and I should not have made a flippant joke about it.

My Love!!! birdiebird August 1 2006, 04:18:47 UTC

i know that you don't condone abortion... i think that is what made it so powerful... I think that you need to talk about it..... in a serious fashion.... and not with jokes, and snide remarks.... You ar better than you are letting yourself be.... Please don't let the pain of someone else's mistake... Ruin YOUR life and testimony!!! I love You!!! You are one of the best people I know... Please don't let my anger or your pain hinder our relationship! Please call me if you need anything.... Escape from your life to talk to someone else... or to vent!!!

Re: My Love!!! bittering August 1 2006, 04:46:42 UTC

._. I know Annie I do and I know your anger is only in concern. And I do appreciate it!!

There is a horrible conflict in my heart, between me wanting to hide and me wanting to fight... I want to keep hiding...but I know I will inevitably fight.

I just...need to get over it and do what needs to be done...