on realising

[birdling]

i'm beginning to think that lying to my doctors, neurologists, & the cmht was a bad idea, but i can't tell anyone.
probably just maudlin. it's disappointing. no longer "the one". never was, really. (in other news). never going to be.

(note to self: man the fuck up.)

Comments

[birdling]

Not lying really, just not telling them what could've triggered me being ill. Doesn't matter though. Not being psychic I don't know what you think the second bit relates to!

[birdling]

Partly, stuff to do with it really. I didn't really want to do what I ended up doing at all, & there have been a few hormonal/physical problems since that aren't much fun.
& yeah, I don't know what to do.

[killrockstar]

hahaha... 'man the fuck up'
i love that x

[youngsailor]

i'm stuck in the same situation, my dear. at times like these, i wonder if my disappointment is perpetual.
most likely.
i suppose i simply need to replace high hopes with apathy. i hope things work out for you. i've added you as a friend; i hope you don't mind.