Oh wrenches to the system.

I feel like I am doing a lot better. Last week was fucking awesome. Folk Fest just is a great week ( Read more... )

I hate being alone and drunk.

It is amazing how much I  keep the same routine. I am too much a creature of habit. I need to break out and do something that is not expected even by myself. Everyone can "guess" what I am going to do next.
Being drunk is just my escape .

Its amazing sometimes how much you hold on to hope for some people yet there is no reason to. They always disappoint yet the hope remains and the end result is always the same ( Read more... )

The Friday hits and I do the same thing. I drink till I don't feel uncomfortable.  Then it feels like I did something wrong somewhere. Theres the moment I feel like a I belong then it passes. When am I going to find that day where I don't need to drink and still have a good night.

I had the urge to try and rate all my music in itunes for some reason. I have done Millencolin and almost done with Saves the Day now. Just kinda of jumping around.  I have rated 512 songs out of 8181 songs. So a shit to go ( Read more... )

Its amazing what hockey does for me mentally. I just cant live without this shit. I wish I could play everyday.

Its Friday and I do the same thing I always do. Yet I always know its going to be the same as the last. I always do it like something is going to change. Nothing ever does. So I wonder why I even bother. I don't know any better, but that doesn't matter. I hold on too that little piece of hope ( Read more... )

I fucking love hockey!!! I wish at times that I could have found it sooner in my life, but later is better then never. Nothing else brings me so much emotion. Joy, Happiness, Angry, Disappointment, All of it.

I understand its only some rec league junk, but its what I got and what I love.