i cant do anything right and im sick of even trying.

me and lis went out for dinner tonight. it was needed. then again, its needed every fucking night. soooo miserable. then we came back and did homework and had a couple beers. watched a movie. well...for as long as i could. cuz it freaked me out beyond belief. wayyyy to realistic/close to home ( Read more... )

This Is My Life, RatedLife:

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today was an incredibly happy day. and i feel like it was too happy to be writing about it in my lj. sad. anyways...yes i am a massive tool. no, i dont care. i'm going to be a ghetto ass gangstahhhh for halloween. that is all. im too fucking happy right now ( Read more... )

consequences suck.

im scared of them.

just got back from break. and everyones gone or sleeping so i have nothing to do. its good to be back i guess. i missed people....and didnt miss other people. me and lis are taking off again in the morn though to go watch my brother play soccer. and see the cows of charlton. and show her the coolness of shepherd hill...for some reason. i ( Read more... )

i HATE when people pretend to care.

yeah.

its amazing how much things can change in a few months.
i still dont think it's hit me yet.
cuz at least once a day i just think of how lucky i am to have certain friends.
and how everything in this world that happens has so much behind it.
i dont know.

someone up there must love me.

so. tonight. nice talk with dearest, whitey visited, then i just wanted to go for a walk to my place. so on my way...this is what happened. so im walking, and lally and haley were being WICKED loud. almost told them but i didnt want to interrupt the party with my sadness. and this kid in morgan made his light on his ceiling blue. it looked ( Read more... )

crap. so this kid from high school is married with a kid and going to wpi. just...crap. this is weird. dont expect people to be married that early. i mean, i was shocked when my sis got married and this kid is only a year older than me. im just in my "i wanna be a whore" stage and people are getting married?!?!? madness. and that is all. ( Read more... )