Can't Sleep.
Dreams will kill me.

I would kill for some ginseng right now.

Still Here.That's me. I'm still here. I watched that video, and I saw my Mom sitting there and I could see the words "Lost a father and a daughter". I realized how much I've hurt her. And now I know why she seems so mean. She's not mean, she loves me. And I was too fucked up to ever know. I love my parents so much. I love my Dad for taking me in ( Read more... )

I'm too lazy for cut tags AND I'm stealing from Sara, how much more can I suck?

Name: Aja
Nickname: Fatty
Age: 16
Instrument: guitar
Favorite music: Indie Rock, Alt Rock, Rock whatever
Favorite store: Salvation Army
Favorite food: Italian...Lovato-style
Favorite animal: Hippos
Favorite musician: Urhm...I don't know, Ben Kweller?
Favorite movie: ( Read more... )

So sick, so sick of being tired
And oh so tired of being sick
We're both such magnificent liars
So crush me baby, I'm all earsI'm sick. Still. My head is swollen, my nose is rudolph-red, I can't breathe, and it feels like someone is sitting on my face, and no, not in a sexual way. I'm always hot, and I swear, it's like there's a dog panting in ( Read more... )

So a book list, for all you compulsive readers. I'm ranking them in order, too.

1. This Lullaby Awesome, awesome book.
2. Gingerbread Cyd Charisse is my God.
3. Harley, Like a Person I related to this girl.
4. Blind Sighted The poetry in here owns.
5. Making the Run Good, just kind of drones on though.
6. Girl Goddess #9 Short stories, but ( Read more... )

I love my best friends, I really do. And it hit me last night when I was rolling around in bed thinking of how to fix things that we always do this to ourselves. We always have these blowups that we fix and go on with. So why torture myself ( Read more... )

I almost forgot I had another journal here.

wordsofnothing

Not that it's great. Because it's not.

I keep having this dream. Not every night, just every so often. Enough to make me...sad.

Enough to make me tired.
Enough to drain me.
To break me.
And to wonder how I can make this better.

Then I remember that I can't. That's why they call them dreams.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haulbitter_brownie goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Anna Nicole Smith._inherbedroom tricks you! You get a dead frog.chokingmeup tricks you! You get a moldy pretzel.euphio6 gives you 18 green passionfruit-flavoured gummy worms.maggie_with_a_q tricks you! You get a broken toy car.making_out gives you 18 white ( Read more... )

I'm back at school again, joy. I have concluded after watching the video on Jane Addams that she was a lesbian, and so were all the girls in that house. I know I'm right. Pfft.

I can't get Yellowcard out of my head and it's scary. Honestly. I just keep singing the same songs too...

I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awakeAnyways. ( Read more... )