My aunt Bettie died today.
She had a long battle with alcohol,
and the alcohol won.
she stopped drinking for a long time.
she had a baby after the doctor told her she couldnt
she got married
i was at the wedding
she was the warmest most loving person i have ever met
She knew i was gay before i did
and she never treated me differently like a lot of my ( Read more... )

Its been snowing like crazy.
I think we will be stuck in the house for about 2 days.
But I have a bottle of wine and some new slippers,
I think I will be just fine.

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Jacob and i broke up last night.
The distance was too much to handle i guess.
He also said that he didn't think i would be supportive if anything ever happened to him or to his family.

I know i can be a dick sometimes and kinda selfish
but
I loved him and i would have done anything to make him feel better.

I got him a ring for x-mas
I had it engraved
"I ( Read more... )

Jacob hasn't called me or tried to contact me for about 2 days.

I'm scared something is going on and hes just not telling me.

Another one

fuck.

November 4th(the day I start school) is taking forever
I want to be doing something other then working at fucking subway

Jacob comes out in a couple weeks
I just went out there last week
I saw my mom for a little and Amanda
It was really fun

The best part was getting to stay with jacob in a hotel for 3 days
It was nice to just be near him

I wish he was ( Read more... )

So

Im going to cosmetology school
I know
Im putting my fashion dreams on hold
but i think i can be really good at hair
I want to use it and be a full stylist
my best friend Racheal's mom owns a salon
she has already gave me a chair in her salon after i get out of school

I have a new guy
hes a high school love
thats now my new love
hes everything i could have ( Read more... )

Im at Nates house, i cant sleep, but everyone is past out. I wish I was at home in my own bed. Sometimes i just cant sleep at other peoples houses. Nate got really really trashed and like past out pretty early. Lee and I watched Juno then he passed out. So now hear I am, 6:40 am and I cant sleep. It pretty much sucks ( Read more... )

My 4th of july was fun, i got hammered, made out with some guy, and shot of fireworks. I think my social like is finally starting to improve. I have a small group of friends, and we hang out and drink do washington things. (whatever that is ( Read more... )

My life, as I know it, has been pretty lame. I work, I spend money on shit i dont need(vodka), and watch hours and hours of mindless T.V. I started to read again, but sometimes i get a little restless and put it down to do something else.

The other day i realized that I haven't had a serious relationship in like 2 years. Thats a little bit ( Read more... )

 Is it impossible to have a adult relationship? I started hanging out with melvyn again, and then out of the blue he stopped calling me or talking to me. I mean yes, i did do the same thing to him when we first stared to hang out, but its kinda insane to start up again just to stop talking to me. Hes 23 fucking years old, you would think he would ( Read more... )