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all i can see is myself falling and hitting the ground. i cant hear any compliment she gives me after that. i dont hear it, i cant listen. shes lying. the only thing my mind is set on is how i let her down again. how i let myself down again. the way i cant just get it right like a normal person. i can see myself on the ground crying and apologizing ( Read more... )

no one calls. at least not the people that i even want to call me. i feel so apart. i'm hating it. i'm beginning to think that i do more damage then good. chris told me not to bother coming to the farm today. i think its a relief for her when i'm not there. and that gives me a sea sick feeling. i dont think i've ever felt so inferior in my whole ( Read more... )

my fingers feel numb. i really have nothing to write about but i feel like writing anway ( Read more... )

i have an everlasting pit in my stomach. nothing makes it go away. i honestly think that i should just stop feeling, because it seems that my emotions constantly get in the way of everything. even breathing. i need to be more intoverted, make my life easier.

have you ever felt like, you had one thing that you wanted more than anything else? but that one thing was out of reach? i'm so there ( Read more... )

i cant help feeling empty, and left behind. out of the loop hole, once again. and this is how its going to be. i dont blame you for it, i'm not mad at you in any way. i cant be. its impossible. i'm just disappointed at the way it all worked out. and maybe its for the best. i shouldnt have gotten so excited about it anyway. but just to be able to ( Read more... )

i've cried the whole way home, and now i sit here trying to comfort myself. its not working at all. i'm praying for a chance, just one last chance. some kind of gift from god, if he cares, even though i know i dont deserve it. but i'm soaking my keyboard with tears of heartache, cause i really dont think i'll be able to watch her go. i've gone as ( Read more... )

the tears keep coming as i await alicia's phone call to let me know shes on her way. i want nothing more than to be in the comfort of her presence, smelling the air of the stable, in this lonely, sad summer night. to see zoe's face, knowing that there is life still going on, still horses to be cared for. maxine, a beloved school pony at sparrowhawk ( Read more... )

things change so suddenly. people change. and thats alright, i mean, nothings wrong. but nothings exactly "right" either. and i remember going into this, with certain people by my side, that now i can only wish were still there. i dont want to go back if it means we arent doing it together. and maybe things will change again, like they constantly ( Read more... )