im not attached to anything here. any moment i can pick up and leave. i feel all that freedom and realize that its not what i want at all. i want to be attached to soemthing. i want to belong to an association of some sort. i wish there was something here that interested me enough to join but i dislike this school and hate the people. its ( Read more... )

i hate pigs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss alex......

i wish death upon those that took away my heart 1 2 6 2 0

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just as i snorted the first oxicontin yesterday afternoon, i wrote about addiction. mostly it was focused on the positive aspects of it and the whole thing how the negative affect is only when the addiction grows into something that's a step away from overdose because really drugs aren't as bad for you as the world portrays them. i mean i still ( Read more... )

so this is all bullshit. i think imma screw up this whole college shit because i really cant keep up with the little work that i need to be doing. shit i dont even have an article for sociology class. fuck me....grrrr.....school SUCKS my big black cock.

HaPPy BiRthDaY to Natty!!!

All in all it's not the blondes that have fun, it's the ones who do not attach themselves to silly little boys, men, securities. Once you become somewhat dependant on someone or something else, there is no turning back. You enter the safe zone in which you feel that comfort that at this point in my life I would find repulsing. Who needs it? Our ( Read more... )

im so happy i got that girl to go online. i hope she believes it as much as i do =)

loneliness sucks. i think everyone who's lonely should call my cell, find out where i am, and chill with me. they would be less lonely that way =)

ericccccccccc get me a non-ghetto boyfriend..............

i think time warner cable is the most symbolic thing in my life at this point. i mean i hit alex with the remote, she throws it against the wall, and it breaks...much like our relationship. and then when i get to the cable company -- they replace the old malfunctioning remote with a new shiny silver one....should i dare compare that to alex? i ( Read more... )

it's weird how chris always used to appear out of no where at the best times. now that my heart is telling me that i should "go for him", he's no where in sight. should i take that as an omen? lately i've been taking everything in as an omen because of this marvelous book i read. it's called the alchemist and i dont think i've ever read ( Read more... )