i had the oddest dream tonight. it was so realistic i could've sworn all that shit really happened. i was at school and lunch had ALL the people i know in it, so everyone is asking me about this kid.. .. .lets call him james. and i end up telling the same story of "our problem" to several people until this one time he turns out to be standing right ( Read more... )

"i have two condoms in my purse and im not afraid to. ... .come to ur house anymore ( Read more... )

im so happy. everyone should be happy. everyone should smoke up and realize that happy is the only way to be. happy happy happy. wheee. yeah the sad sad world has made me smile once again. muaahhaha. . .christos called me up like a minute before i was going to take a hit. and he's like "im so proud of you for saying no to drugs. you becoming a good ( Read more... )

trapped within myself i realize that i myself am an illusion. there is no me. no one knows me. no one ever will. the ones that know this sasha dont know the alexandra. the ones that know the alexandra do not know the skeptie. the ones that know a name dont know the heritage. the ones that are observant are misled into my lies. its fun. a lost ( Read more... )

impatient. that i am.
but there is doubt rooted into patience.
i should have doubt
hope in people's truths.
i should have never left that country.
i am alone.
he just wanted to help me.
thank you boobie.

you are so far ( Read more... )

i wish i died. i wish i had the balls to ask him to love me and when rejected, died. i would have made him cry then. he would then see what happened. instead he tells me to grow up. child, realize that fantasies do not prevent you from growing up. they simply let you fly. instead i should have died. it would have been more dramatic that way ;)

scool. what a great place to fucking realize how much of a procrastinator you are. i love this place. at least the hot water worked this morning so i could take a nice long shower. . .warm morning showers are nice. i feel so damn refreshed ( Read more... )

thank god for natty. i love this girl. she sets me straight on everything. and for once im listening and doing as opposed to listening and....well not doing. im grateful that god brought her into my life and that she was my best friend for a while. she was the best best friend i ever had. like a true sister. i miss her with all my heart. more than ( Read more... )

i got the best present from god today. i never asked for it, only hoped. but its been a couple of years since i wanted it. i feel blessed. i havent felt good about reality in ages. i've been escaping reality to feel happy, but it was so fake. today she finally came around and made reality better. today i felt the world falling to my feet. and all i ( Read more... )