Comments | bklyngirl: Where the heck have you been - and why can't you walk anymore??

bklyngirl

Where the heck have you been - and why can't you walk anymore??

Sep 18, 2007 11:57

Been out of touch far too long - I tried to hit on the highlights, but a lot has changed.

( April 2006 - March 2007 - just your average run of the mill year... )

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lesliepear September 18 2007, 16:26:54 UTC

(HUGS)

Hopefully as you get out and about your panics will lessen. Maybe blogging will help.

Can't believe you have 2 in college.

bklyngirl September 19 2007, 22:09:33 UTC

I can't believe I have 2 in college either :-)

Thanks for the hugs - and the heads up on your friend - I added her to my Friends List. I'm happy to speak to anyone with any insight into this situation at all!

I spent last night catching up on my Friends - I'm glad that your medical problems seem to be under control at the moment!

lesliepear September 18 2007, 16:28:12 UTC

By the way sebab on my friends list has neuropathy (diabetes related). Maybe she has advice for you.

cjsmith September 18 2007, 23:20:40 UTC

Oh, my friend, you have been through the wringer. I hereby vow that I will not say ONE WORD of complaint about my own idiopathic peripheral neuropathy (the one that makes me unable to run, hike, square dance, bicycle, etc, but DOES leave me able to WALK short distances). Not ONE complaint. For, um, what's a good time limit? I'll figure something out ( ... )

bklyngirl September 19 2007, 22:17:40 UTC

Thanks CJ! Complain away though my friend - if nothing else I have gained tremendous empathy in the past few months. I guess some good has to come out of all of this.

Do you find the whole endless quest for an explanation to almost be the worst part of this? I keep thinking that if I had an explanation I could either a) find a cure or at least a treatment or b) accept that this is it - and always will be. But even if it turned out to be "b" at least there would be a little closure. As it stands now I find myself postponing a lot of things by saying "When I get better, I will..." Although recently I've been doing that a little bit less and just trying to figure out how to get on with things even though there is no end in sight. Part of me feels like that's defeatist. The other part thinks it's just realism.

If you do come to New York, be sure and let me know - I'd love to meet for dinner or a drink. I haven't read that book - but it sounds intriguing so I'm going to go take a look on Amazon for it.

Good luck to you too!((

cjsmith September 20 2007, 01:17:08 UTC

Oh yes, empathy is a big thing I have learned, too. It's amazing how much I've changed! I might even have been the type of person to be annoyed because I was stuck behind the slowpoke. How spoiled and self-centered can you get?? I'm glad I'm not that person any more ( ... )

bklyngirl September 21 2007, 00:12:05 UTC

I am embarrassed to say how much I was that person who was annoyed being stuck behind the slowpoke. And I'm kind of disgusted with how much of a whiner I used to be about things that seem relatively silly now. Even now, I try really hard to tell myself that while things may suck for me, there are people with worse problems. And I feel bad that my friends and family feel like they can't come to me with their problems or complaints - they always seem to be saying "I shouldn't complain to you though..." I think that's silly - everyone has problems and to each of us it's only natural and right that we all focus on our own crap ( ... )

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kimatha September 19 2007, 00:47:30 UTC

Holy crap, Rob, what an ordeal!

*hugs*

bklyngirl September 19 2007, 22:19:32 UTC

Thanks Kim! Looking back through the past few months of LJ, I see that you and Sam have had your share of difficult days - I'm glad everything worked out well with the wildfire and that all of your babies made it through okay! And I'm really glad to see you found a job you enjoy!

redgrrl September 19 2007, 13:48:14 UTC

Robin, my God, I cannot believe that this has happened to you! If there is anything at ALL I can do, just say the word.

bklyngirl September 19 2007, 22:27:55 UTC

Thank you so much Wendy! For now, it's just good to know I have people willing to listen to me babble :-)

Hey - can you believe that our kids are in college? We've come a long way since we first "met" and we did a pretty good job, when all is said and done (if I do say so myself LOL)!

redgrrl September 20 2007, 12:53:49 UTC

Re: kids:

I *know*! Mike is actually OUT of college -- he turned 24 last month. 24!

I hope things between you and your daughter are better. They sure like to challenge us, don't they? I remember breaking my mom's heart when I was 19 by getting involved with a married guy twice my age. It didn't go as far as it could have -- I got scared and broke it off -- just plain stupidity. My mom was a rock through it, though.