i`ve always wondered why i`m so sad and why i hate me, and finally i think i`ve figured it out. i always feel second best to everyone around, and i know that i am. my sister leraine would give shawna the world, and i always get what shawna didn`t want from it. and it hurts. i know this should make me stronger, and more independent.. but honestly, ( Read more... )

my new job is awesome. nuff said! (:

falling (in love) is like a breath of fresh air. <3<3

i don`t ever write in my journal anymore. i`m over this stuff. but i thought i would post this because it makes me crack up. exactly one year ago at this time i was so excited for what i was embarking on.. oh what a joke that is now ( Read more... )

Whose bed have your boots been under ( Read more... )

Well after reading things and seeing how everything works, I`ve decided I have to end my livejournal. I really cannot write in this because it`s all drama and he said//she said stuff. I`m kinda over this point in my life. I might write periodically but probably not more than that. I`ll still check up on everyone and read other livejournals but that ( Read more... )

party at my apt last night.
the night was wild.
i hate a lot of people now.
some stuff got jacked.
people got jacked.
but i love my girls.
and i`m totally straight.
what are the plans tonight ladies?!
kisses and hugs. Xo

WAYYY Random Adeventure Tonight. Will Update The Whole Thing Tomorrow. Much LO-LO-LO-LO-VE!!

I must be Howard Stern and you must be the FCC because I don`t know any other reason why you are regulating my eljay. But whatever, the post that was not about you is gone. And now I`m one censored biiiiitch! Don`t you loooove it?! I surely do. Everyone else`s drama always starts with me some how ( Read more... )

Life has been joking me lately. But when isn`t it. Anyways. After I updated Monday, I really didn`t sleep. I took a shower and laid on the couch till Neens got here. Then we looked at the ybook. At like 445 we peaced to Outback to have dinner with her Padre and brother. It was yummy. Neens and I both picked up applications. Oh the fun. Then we went ( Read more... )